Saath

Saath tumhara mil bhi jaaye,
Yaad tumhari ab na aaye
Intezaar main tere hain hum
Is rooh ko mukaam mil na paaye

Din woh raat, aatein hain yaad
Jab mila tha mujhko tumhara saath
Waqt ki thi koi khabar nahi
Yun hi chalti thi apni toh baat

Pal woh saare gaye hain tham
Zindagi ke bhi ab din hain kam
Tum bin ab na koi nishaan
Ghum hai gayi is dil ki sargam

Aise main tum yaad na aao
Saath humara chhod na jao
Aankhon main jo ab hain aansoon
Inko dekho aur sirf inhiko chaho

Faint

Struck with a bullet,
Shot in my heart
I died in your arms
My dreams died with my part

Shattered memories, shattered core
My eyes filled with tears in a pour
My restless soul lay in a fold
Yet I smiled when you hugged me in your hold

Desperate measures, I could hear no sound
And all I saw was your face filled with frown
When you came by, my heart skipped another beat
As my eyes got heavy, I was bound to defeat

Yet another day, I smiled within my pain
Holding myself together, within restrain
I could feel the stress and your constraint
And that's all I will remember before I faint

Downfall

All this time I waited just for you
Never said a word, stayed calm and cool
I was dying inside but I laughed like a fool
My heart felt the pain, I wish you could see it too

Lost in transition, you never came back
And I became shattered lying in a stack
My heart, my love, my life, it all started to crack
Everything I could see, it all turned black

But that didn't matter, you walked your own way
While my silly heart continued to pray
Little by little, things began to sway
Yet all I ever wished was for you to stay

What happened to us, was it all my fault?
While words became dry, you continued to bawl
And in this chaos you caused, I continued to crawl
Your actions and your words thus led to my downfall

Final Frontier

Emotions, like paper are damaged when dip
Stretch them further and they will rip
Sharpen your hearts as your eyes begin to drip
Learn the right lessons or you'll continue to trip

Analyze the static as the time stops
Hear them whisper as the rain drops
Feel my pain as my heart's in chops
Face the music as I jump through burning hops

Listen to me now and I will shut this case
Move on with my life, enter a new phase
But for all lost words, I will repeat this phrase
Thoughts like these are what my broken heart says

I have reached my final frontier, reached my final days
As I waited all this time, just to hear your praise
But that never happened, and now I am lost in this maze
Stuck with your memories, as my mind turns into haze

Agony Is Pain

Agony is pain
Can you feel it?
My life's in restrain
Can you heal it?

For me lies here another test
And this one I must lay to rest
So I can get myself out of this heart-arrest
And release this pain that lies in my chest

I scream for you
Can you hear it?
This blood stream's for you
Can you shear it?

I washed up ashore for you to see
My motionless body which felt more free
As it had overcome your flashing decree
Heading towards my exit destiny

This is my time
See those stains?
Now pay for your crime
Its gonna be curtains

Watch me now as I will turn
This world upside down in an urn
As these words I continue to churn
In a spark, this world persists to burn

Why?

Falling from that place so high
I see a diamond in your eye
What went wrong...I wanna know why?
When all was fine, what went so wild?

When we were together,
I never heard you cry
If you asked me,
I'd even be willing to die

So then why did you leave?
Never gave me another try
Just walked away one day
Didn't even say good-bye...

I waited all along
But you never came by
Yet all I wanted to know
Is why you left me...why?

Tere Bin

Tumse hai meri jaan
Tumse hai yeh jahaan
Tumse hai saara aasmaan
Tumse hai meri khushiyaan

Tum na ho to main na rahoon
Tum na ho to jee na sakoon
Tum na ho to main kya karoon?
Tum na ho to sab chhod doon

Tum bin hai mera jeena mushkil
Tum bin hai meri duniya ojhal
Tum bin hai bas dard mere paas
Tum bin hai teri yaadon ka ehsaas

Tere bin to kaise ab main jeeyonga?
Tere bin to main tadap hi uthoonga
Tere bin to duniya anjaan si lage
Tere bin to subah phir kabhi na hue

The Very First Moment

Listen to this song
This song of you and me
Just you and me, just me and you
From the very moment that I first met you

That very moment that I first saw you
I fell in love, I fell for you
I could tell you then, we were meant to be
My heart was gone, it went to you

You may not have known but I swear to you
That very moment, I saw nothing but you
Nothing but you, I swear it is true
Not the people passing by, not the girl next to you

That very moment remains etched in my heart
As I look again to you, for we can't be through
We can't be through, oh tell me it is true
As I look again at that moment when I first met you

Free

I hear your voices every day
I feel you next to me all the time
Without you, my life has strayed away
And now I'm looking for the way back home

I run to your shadow valiantly
As your light shines in my sight
In your denial lies my coffin
Your arrival remains my respite

You stepped out, you walked away
Leaving behind no hidden trace
Yet I'm still here, waiting for you
For the moment when you'll show your face

I suffocate every day, waiting for the day
When you'll come back or this life leaves me
So please make my wishes come true
For my destiny is to be set free

Sargam

Aasmaan ko chu lene do
Yeh dard see lene do
Kal ki hai khabar kise
Yeh dastaan jee lene do

Aaj mein hi hai yeh sama saara
Pal bhar mein jee lo tum isko to yaara
Khushiyon se bhara hai yeh jahan pyara
Abhi waqt hai, phir milega na yeh dobara

Rakho itna bharosa, koi chu na paaye tumhein
Haathon se haath milao, koi rok na paaye humein
Hum tum mil kar yeh jahan jeet lenge
Apne dum par milega humein duniya bhar ka samay

Chahe ho koi ranjish, jeetenge ab hum
Apni kashish se, duur honge saare ghum
Ab tumhari aankhein na hone denge num
Itni surili likh denge, hum zindagi ki sargam

When I'll Be Gone

As I die here in your arms,
Will you remember me again?
My peace lies within your answer
Please let my soul lay in calm

As these moments pass me anxiously
I recall the days when were together
Yet you thought of them lightly
And they flew away as a feather

And now I am left here all alone
Despite you being next to me
My life has turned so cold inside
I feel hollow and pale within

I always knew this day would come
When light upon us, would be shone
So I leave you with this final question
What happens to us, when I'll be gone?

You Melt My Heart

When ever I talk to you
That is when I fall for you
Your words enslave my heart
You melt my heart, you melt my heart...

I've lost my senses, I've lost myself
In your love, I've become a broken shelf
That can only be fixed by you
Please see this through, please see this through...

I'm in danger of losing my mind
Since your love has left me in a bind
I wish you could hear these thoughts in my head
Don't leave me for dead, don't leave me for dead...

When all's said and done, I'm still here
Waiting for you despite cowering in fear
I'll do this again until we can re-start
You melt my heart, you melt my heart

Chal Pada Hoon

Chal pada hoon ek anjaane raaste par
Chal pada hoon teri yaadein saath lekar
Aaj bhi phir tumse milne ki tamanna hai
Chal pada hoon bas yehi dil ki aas lekar

Jab se tum gaye ho, tumhein yaad karta hoon
Jab se tum gaye ho, tera intezaar karta hoon
Laut aao ab to tum, o meri jaane-jaana
Jab se tum gaye ho, issi umeed main bandha hoon

Chahaton ke samundar main, meri hai woh ek naav
Jisko chhod, tum beh gaye ho mujhse kahin duur
Dil ki hai yeh fariyaad kabhi to milenge hum
Aise main mujhse tum yun ruthe se na rehna

Aas hai, vishwaas hai ek din hum phir milenge
Duniya dekhti rahegi, ek naya itihaas hum rachenge
Tumhari khatir main karoonga woh jo tum kahoge
Bas tum yun hi, mera saath na chodana phir kabhi

Fate

Can you hear the noises
As they sought after you?
Can you hear me fall
As I am lost after you?

Can you see my pain
As I hold on for you?
Can you see the tears rain
As I lie again for you?

I hope you can see
What you've done to me
You've destroyed me again
When I kept myself in refrain

I wish I could tell
The fate that has befell
Upon me, thanks to you
One day, you will see this too

As the day that I die
You will regret and cry
But yes, it will be too late
Because now I control my fate

I Dare You

So how would you like if I told you, you are
The one I wanna fly away with on to a star
But hey, just wake up, your dream is over
This is my life and I ain't no pushover

Be glad I let you be yourself with me
Because I am sick and tired of this destiny
Just listen to me for I am tired of this pain
Follow my heed or I'll burn down this fire again

So if I tell you to back down, that's what you do
'Coz you have no idea all that I have been through
You were the motivation, you were the cause
Stop right there, my world's about to pause

Now return to the world where I'm not so soft-spoken
But don't dare talk to me, I'm not so open
That I will let you be yourself with me
So if you want me, then first set me free

Being Me

You may see everything but you can never see me
You may hear the world but you can never hear me
You may feel everything but you can never feel me
You may read everyone but you can never read me

You may gain a soul but you can never gain me
You may raise some hope but you can never be with me
You may touch a heart but you can never touch me
You may get another start but you can never get me

You may get another life but you can never hold me
You may let another scream but you can never seize me
You may set another fire but you can never burn me
You may hold another desire but you can never have me

You may become who you want but you can never be me
You may love who you want but you can never love me
You may convince the world but you can never get me
You can think all you want but you still can't be me

Come Back Home

So is this it?
The place where it all ends
Where we all fly away
Leaving behind you and me

You and I, its just you and I
This world we shall defy
Our mistakes we shall rectify
Your heart I shall satisfy

Just give me a chance to purify
Our fights I will pacify
I will seize the moment to amplify
Our love which I will specify

Just give me one last chance
As I continue to await your return
Lasting on my only hope that you are
Please come back home, please come back home

Narrow Road

You are cutting into my soul
You keep scathing into my heart
You are the ashes swept into my mind
You keep breaking me into pieces

You are sweeping through my thoughts
You keep crashing into my mind
You are the hope that never existed
You keep rushing for my demise

As I fall back down,
And get swept by these thoughts
I see the world I leave before me
Yet all I can see is you

Infusing my final breath
I still can't leave you in my past
Despite all that you have done
I still hold you in high regard

Perhaps its my fault
I could never see things through
Or despite all I knew
All I could see was you

So now I leave behind
This pain and this sorrow
Yet for all of my faults
Remember the road you are on is narrow

There's No 'Us' Without You

Just call me home,
I can't stay here without you
Our world is gone,
As the sky crumbles upon you

Don't drop me by,
My soul dies here without you
Just call my name,
Our love shall befall upon you

Bring me back to life,
I will be lost here without you
Think of the past,
When our love was built upon you

Those were the days,
When there was no "me" without you
Don't leave me be,
This day shall rise upon you

Lost Souls

Panic arises upon us
As we race into oblivion
Demise of the world is impending
As everything shatters into smithereens

The artifacts of our existence
Scatter all across the planet
As our souls merge deeper in chaos
Our parting gifts may never be found

We bleed our love for those to come
But they move on as if nothing passed by
We wander around like the lost souls we are
But the mystery remains, just who we were

Yet this is the time,
When all comes to peace
Everything's erased,
Everyone's at ease

Miracles do happen
As you shall see
The day its all over
The world will cease to be

Story Of Our Lives

What are letters with expressions?

What are words with meanings?

What is literature with a flow?

What is poetry with a tone?

What is music with animations?

What is a video with a memory?

What is a movie with you and me?

It is the story of our lives

As I Lay Dying

Trust me again,
My mind's filled with you
Raise my life,
My eyes sought after you

As I walk on fire,
You move me forward
As my feet start bleeding,
You sooth me with your soul

Restless memories,
Stop me from leaving
Glimpses of hope,
My mind's still deceiving

Yet I'm still staggering,
Struggling to leave you behind
As my world comes crumbling,
This cold water reflects you

Burn me within,
I can't live without you
As I lay dying,
I see only you...I see only you

Today

Today is the day when I die
Today is the day when I cry
Defeated in life, wincing in pain
Here, against this wall, as I lie

As my heart starts to pause
And my memories begin to fade
And I am filled with desperate melodies
I rehash the memoirs that I leave behind

Today is the day when I cry
Today, this pain, I shall defy
As my skin turns pale and my voice becomes mellow
Today, everything, I shall justify

As I feel hurt and I feel enraged
And I take actions that didn't seem to be
I take another look at the world left behind
And show them what it means to be me

Today is the day when I die
Tonight is the night that will not dawn

Miracle

Another day, another night
Against my destiny, I am losing this fight
When there's nothing else I can comprehend
You come right along and hold my hand

Mysterious people in a mysterious world
Like on broken wheels, vehicles twirl
When I'm lost and can't see what's right
You come right along and show me the light

Like the wind that blows against my face
My life without you is a disgrace
Against all odds, I'm hoping for a recall
You are the only one who can save me from this fall

You are the one who is my destiny
You are the one I want everyone to see
You are the one who can make me free
Yeah, you are the one who is a miracle to me

How I Feel

I feel frustrated, I feel bewildered
Lost in my thoughts, I feel silvered
I feel neglected, I feel dejected
Life has left me, I feel rejected

I feel divorced, I feel separated
Broken and bruised, I feel blistered
I feel repented, I feel submerged
Faded away and lost, I feel reversed

I feel despised, I feel degraded
Being all alone, I feel segregated
I feel disjoined, I feel disdained
Broken into pieces, I feel disguised

I feel disturbed, I feel perturbed
With pain and sorrow, I feel suborned
I feel rescinded, I feel cheated
With things all wrong, I feel defeated

Mirage

Floating through these dreams
Flowing through the river
I see a beautiful mirage
That holds me in refrain

Burning through this fire
Hurling through this flare
Your face resides in my memories
As I envisage this pain

I am possessed by a soul
As I lay here in the ashes
My anger has subdued me
As I hold myself in restrain

Tears fall down as droplets
As you walk away in the rain
My heart still desires you
As I walk alone in disdain

What I Want

I want to live my own life
I want to make my own rules
I want to pursue my own destiny
I want to do things I want to

I want to only take those actions
That I feel are worth being done
I want to only make those corrections
That I feel are worth my time or fun

I want to make my wishes come true
I want to solve all my problems through
I want to make all my dreams real
I want to act as I want to

I want to only feel for those
That I feel are worth my feelings
I want to only heal those sorrows
That I feel are worth my healings

I want to write what I care for
I want to be heard by all I want
I want all these fantasies to exist
I want to free myself from you

Fade Away

You left me stranded, you walked away
Leaving me alone, leaving me astray
I waited for you, I stayed here
From the moment you left, due to our fray

I was living a life I couldn't control
I was telling myself lies that couldn't be told
So is this how my life will unfold?
One where the devil will have my life sold?

You broke my heart, you left me shattered
Into pieces, you left me all tattered
It feels my pain never really mattered
Hence why you left me completely spattered

You show me your back, you turn away
As these distances arise, you fade away
So I stand here, feeling this way
Living a life filled with misery and pain

Scars

Burning within me are these deep scars
Raging within me is the agony of pain
As I stand here alone, waiting for you
My heart is torn apart in the fear of losing you

These lost memories that remind me of you
Hurt me everyday within the flames of fury
With these open scars that you've left me
I die again sheathed in your hatred

My guilty conscience stings me again
As the weight of the world comes crashing down my shoulders
Yet I am still here living in this world
Waiting on this misery to come to an end

I feel ashamed for these wounds I am left with
Yet it is my fault and so I keep on moving
Walking along on this blazing trail
Until I can find a heal for these scars

Rise Against The Ashes

Rise against the ashes
Ashes that the elites burn
Burn away your past
Past that is full of shadows

Shadows that surpass time,
Time that was unholy for everyone.
Everyone awaits their future
Future that's full of lies

Lies told by the gods
Gods that know our demise
Demise is our fate,
Fate that is defeated by none

None of the above may seem real
Real, yet is what we don't remember
Remember the souls of the heroes
Heroes that again shall rise

With These Last Words

It is just another day in the city of angels
It is just another day when no one is asleep
In this very moment I am resigned to my fate
Where failure surrounds me and my doom is near

At times like these, I remember the sunshine
At times like these, I remember you here
For with you gone, the sun has set on my life
And now all I see around me is misery and pain

Not so long ago, I was resolute to get you back
Not so long ago, I only wished we were together
Yet those moments have passed me and I'm all alone
And now I am just falling into the downward spiral

With these last words, I say adieu
With these last words - I wish I were you
For then I could see you when the sun sets too
Alas, these silly dreams are too good to be true

Into Pieces

You've left me into pieces
And gave me no good reason
Burning me alive again
You're killing me every season

All that I have now, are the memories of you
All that you left behind and the sadness too
I'm still trembling with the darkness left behind
As your thoughts fade, leaving me unrefined

I am a zombie, you are my potion
Every passing moment, you become my emotion
You are my soul, you are my savior
Hold me together, change my behavior

I'm still breaking, falling into pieces
Since you left me, for no good reason
Desperately trying to hold myself together
I await the day when things will get better

Laut Aao

Ashqon ko chupa loon yeh ho na sake
Tujhko main bhula doon yeh ho na sake
Khudko phir main chahe jo bhi saza doon
Tere liye main bas jannat ki dua karoon

Chahe jahan main jaoon, tera hi chehra paoon
Yaadon main doob jaoon, sona bhi bhool jaoon
Tere saath ke liye, yun tadapta hai yeh dil
Ki tere bin suni hai duniya ki sab mehfil

Yeh shabd likhta hoon main, bas tere hi liye
Yeh geet gaata hoon main, bas tere hi liye
Mujhse hui jo khata toh, mujhe bhool na jaana
Chahe beete kitni bhi sadaein, mujhe yaad hi aana

Gaoon kuch aisa, mil jaaye sabko apna meet
Pyar ke nagmo se bhara, ho aisa yeh sangeet
Kashton ko saare tum yun, pyar se bhulao
Madhur yeh vaadi kehti hai, ab toh laut aao

Pray

The world echoes in my ears
Coming alive are my worst fears
Somebody help me, I'm breaking into tears
My final destiny is here, it appears

In my distant memory, lie our phases
Abandoned I'm shifting between different places
Moving along are all these new faces
I'm lost, someone get me out of these mazes

What's next, I've lost my thought
From the day that you and me fought
Wind in my eyes, I'm catching nought
My life is a chaos, I forgot

With broken wings, now I can only sway
As the weather shifts between night and day
Like a fading soul, I'm withering away
I'll see you again, that's all I can pray

My Destiny

I'm alive yet I can't breath
I can see you yet I can't reach
Maybe its destiny that I can see
How, me without you, is incomplete

I'd spend a day just to be with you
I'd make a wish just to see you
Yet days pass by and you ain't here
And my life is slowly about to disappear

I'm used to heart-breaks and agony
Like a curse or some felony
Yet my respite is only through you
Despite you saying that we are through

I want to know you more than a memory
I want to hear you more than a melody
I want to see you more than a scenery
I want to tell you, you are my destiny

Aaghaaz

Dua kari hai bas yeh dil se
Mile tumse yeh jaan bhi kabhi
Anjaanon main jo chupa hai chehra
Woh mere hi nafs main samaa jaaye

Tere ishq main hue hain yun qurbaan
Ki bas yeh pyar hi hai meherbaan
Aashiqui ki hadhon ko karein paar
Tere ishq main yun hain hum lachaar

Teri khushi ke vaaste karein jo tum kaho
Maut ko peeche chhod de, bas tum khush raho
Jo tum keh do, yeh chaand-taare tod laaye
Bas dard ke kabhi na padein tum par saaye

Aaj bhi yaadon main yeh zakhm khul jaate hain
Bebasi main bhi yaad aati tumhari baatein hain
Tumhare saath ek nayi zindagi ka aaghaaz karein
Bas yehi vichaar se kat jaati sab raatein hain

Story

We all are a part of a story
We all are the lead in a tale
And if we don't do what we are told
We all are bound to fail

Whether you like it
Or whether you don't
It is how it goes
It is our wont

It is our destiny to oblige
And not hold out to self-pride
Passion leads to the one decree
Only after demise, shall we rise

Believe me when I say
I have lost my glory
Because this truly was
The end of my life's story

See You Again

As I lay here standing
And see the floor below
The world comes crashing down
Right here on this road

Here our destinies collide
Where we meet and stay
Until the day comes back
Haunting the picture left behind

Yet I am still here
Waiting all alone
Left with those memories
That shall unite us again

Faith is my motivation
Love being my pain
Yet despite this agony
I'll see you again one day

Maqbool

Ishq tum humse yun na kar sake
Sach yeh tumse hum na keh sake
Rukhsat hai tum par yeh meri jaan
Tere hi nafs main hai yeh dil, yeh jahan

Beete afsano main basi dil ki tarang
Aansuon main bahi jo tum na ho sang
Zindagi ke manjhar ka nahi koi basera hai
Jo aaj raat hai toh kal bhi sawera hai

Apni hi rooh main jo tumne di thi panah
Toh aaj tum bin, yeh zindagi bhi hai ek saza
Ashqon main beete ab yeh saare pal hai
Is tanhaayee main na koi aaj na kal hai

Yaadon main ab bhi sirf tum hi base ho
Lafzon main mere bhi tum hi saje ho
Maqbool hai mujhko tum se yeh judaai
Par ishq ka nahi vaasta, hai yehi sachchai

Bittersweet Symphony

I really hated you when I first met you
I felt like you were lying to everyone around
Seeing you smile when things were tough
Made me jealous to absolutely no end

I knew that you were hiding something from others
You never showed your real feelings to anyone
And so I had decided I would find more about you
Since your dual personality truly intrigued me

That was when things fell apart for me
I was in a chaos and had no-one for help
Yet you were so gentle when you talked to me
You calmed me down just like an angel

That's when I knew you would be there for me
How you fought your problems with a persistent smile
And so now I really wish to do the same for you
And there within lies our bittersweet symphony

Loneliness

Loneliness is a bitter word
Just like feelings are hard to convey
Its a little ironic then
That you left me when I truly loved you

I never really was very outspoken
But I could tell you how I felt
Maybe that was my biggest fault
That I could never see things past you

I was so stuck up on you
That you were like an asset to me
I felt we were destined to be together
And now this loneliness is killing me

Today a new chapter shall start in my life
One that begins without you here
And although I'm still not over you
Its all that is left for me now

All Alone

Why is our life ever so uncertain?
Why can't things remain the same?
As I'm left all alone, I wondered
How everything seems to have fallen apart

It feels like yesterday when I was so happy
Smiling and laughing on our way back home
Then all of a sudden, I came to realize
How these things weren't meant to be

Maybe its my fault that I didn't understand
What you meant to me, where I stood alone
But I never really had a chance to explain myself
Before I could say anything, you had long since gone

Maybe I was being a little selfish
When I ignored that you said you were leaving
But I really wasn't lying when I said I needed you
Yet we are all through and I'm all alone again

Shards

Everyday I open my eyes
Hoping for a new surprise
Yet all I see, every now and then
Remains the same, nothing's changed

Maybe it's my fault that I expect so much
My mind sees things that I can't touch
Yet our lives are abstract and ever so livid
That only these things makes my life vivid

Maybe my destiny is sealed from the start
But I know I can change it, so says my heart
And so I continue fighting against my fate
Even if it seems that nothing's changing my state

Among all these maybe's, so much is for certain
I'll keep striving until I see the curtains
And so as my fortune continues to lay down the cards
I'll continue picking up, my life's leftover shards

Meri Jaan

Rab se yeh hi dua hai
Tujhse mujhe mila de
Tere hi naseeb main
Mujhko bhi jagah de

Jab yeh ashq main bahaoon
Tujhko hi har jagah paoon
Par aankhein jab khule ye
Tujhse na kahin mil paoon

Saath jab mil jaaye tera
Khushiyon se bhar jaoon
Roshan hue yeh jag mera
Jaise raat se hue sawera

Mere ishq ka tu abhimaan hai
Tu hai to dard anjaan hai
Tu nahi to dil bejaan hai
Haan bas tu hi meri jaan hai

Your Memories

Living with the faintest of memories
I wonder who I see within them
If you are the person I see everyday
Then I wonder where you went

Within my dreams, I see a person
Who seems to be very close to me
Yet I don't recall much of you
As my memories continue to wither away

I wonder what happened that made you leave
What broke your heart and led to this
I must have hurt your heart a lot
And now I regret how it made you feel

The actions I took in the past I cannot change
And I don't even deserve to say I am sorry
Yet the happiness we shared is all I ask for
As those are all the memories that I recall

With You

As my hopes begin to shatter
And the lights begin to fade
I recall a distant memory with you
When I was filled with laughter and joy

Yet those times have since long gone
And there's nothing left with me
As my soul loses its aura
I enter the realm of darkness

Yet even when I am fading away
My heart still yearns for you
Knowing that there is no escaping
I only wish that you were still here

I wander around in the lonely roads
As my mind begins losing consciousness
Yet I can always feel that you are around
Because I only live to be with you

Sangram

Dard ka saagar hai jismein yun rehte hai
Maut ka saudagar hai jisse yeh kehte hai
Humein ruksat kar tum chale kahan gaye ho
Jahan par yeh zakhm hum hardum yun sehte hai

Tum bin yeh zindagi toh yun bhi nyochavar hai
Tum par yeh zindagi toh yun bhi qurbaan hai
Phir aise mein humein kyun chhod chale ho
Jab yeh zindagi tere ishq ki mohtaaz hai

Ishq main tadapna hum seekh bhi lenge
Dard main bilakhna yun seh bhi lenge
Lekin is rooh ko jism na mile to
Ashqon se hum zindagi seench bhi lenge

Kagaz par tumhein likh kar sunate hain
Hum apne is ishq ka yeh paigaam
Chahe jahan jao na humko bhula paoge
Hai yeh meri zindagi aur maut ka sangram

My Heart

In this world full of hypocrisy
You are my only hope
While others have left me stranded
I can live if you are by my side

As the days continue to pass
I live on the moments we shared
While the past may never come back
At least these memories are all mine

Reliving the days gone by
Bring a smile to my face
Wondering how things fell apart
I regret what I had done

As the ashes continue to wither away
I can only think about you
Even as my memory fades away
My heart still yearns for you

Set Us Apart

The shine of your eyes,
Brightens up my soul
My heart's in distraught
Please never leave me alone

Beneath those crystal eyes
I can see you are still hurt
And I truly mean I am sorry
Trust me, I'm feeling worse

Now that you have left me
I realize what a fool I was
Anger got the best of me
And now I'm in agony and pain

Yet I'm still here waiting
For the day you will grant my wish
Because the day you say you love me,
Even death can't set us apart

Jhilmil Jhakaas (JJ)

One of my all time favorite poems...certainly the longest I've ever written...I wrote this when I was about to leave India to come here...this was part of my farewell "gift" to our group JJ...check it out!


Once upon a time, there were 12 different friends
Having different natures, having different trends
They had their fights, but then made their amends
'Cause they were all, held together by friendship bands

(Welcome to JJ...the loop begins...now)

Abhishek (Golcha) is the first one
And he has muscles, more than a ton
He is next year's North East terror boss
So you better be scared of him or else its your own loss!

Adhaar (Swaroop Agarwal) is the next to come
Always playing pranks or being troublesome
His PJ's (Parag Scale) are difficult to handle
Always wanting you to hit him with a sandal!

Ashish (Garg) is the next to bid - he's the "Big" kid
'Cause even till 9th, he drank milk from a bottle lid!
His nature is certainly very weird to chart
But it doesn't matter, since he's always good at heart

Our big CC, Manish (Agarwala) is next,
Always spending money on girls, or sending them text
Reaching his fart level is where everyone is to fail
And that's why we have our own "Manish Scale"!

Nitesh (Kumar Srivastava) is next on the list,
And he's got a temper which is always on the mist
He can easily rank on top of others and quit lagging
But that's only gonna happen when he quits fagging

Rahul (Saraf / Chintu) is the next one,
An excellent kid and a dream son (Nitesh's)
He's the one to look for when searching for fun
And this I say seriously, with no intended pun!

Rohit (Chawla / Gujju) is the one I highly rate
And this is so, because girls of his state, I find great!
If I write about your "khujli", I don't know about my fate
But you should mimic Tales Spin's Baloo and I mean it, mate!

Shantanu (Singh Chikara) is the kool guy
Passing around as an IEI executive, oh my!
He will tell you, about your mistakes
Although too many, For Goodness Sake!

Siddharth (Agarwala) is the one to deeply think
And this you can tell, even without a blink
The time he takes to get ready is even more than girls
Always cleansing his skin and combing his curls!

Sourabh (Sipani) is the 24X7 working chap,
One who's always got a book in his lap
He is the idiotic yet comical character
Who has no interest towards the "C" factor!

Vaibhav (Jalan) is the guy who's always on fire
Give him some ice and he'll give back more angry desire!
But I still hope, the "Chocolate Boy" reaches his N(a)as(h)a
'Cause that's when he'll fulfill his "aashaa"!

Lastly, Himanshu (Shringi), me, fills this JJ loop
Where I am the emotional part of this funky troop
But still a unique set of Parag's is what I hold
Although, to reach 10 Parag, it ain't enough to be brave and bold

(JJ loop ends here...Please go back to the start)

Now, I do heartily say that I will miss you all,
Regardless of how much I rise...or even if I fall
So always be prepared for my SMS or call
Although, as you know, I won't pay the toll!

Feelings

Another old poem...Its "unique" to say the least


Motivation, Inspiration, Destination, Frustration,
Expectation, Anticipation, Situation, Devastation.
I look for laughter, only to end up facing suppression
I try to remain happy, but I only face depression

My life's been all about faces without expression,
Looking for expansion, but ending with compression
Should I remain calm or should I show aggression?
Whatever I do, I can't resist the oppression

Feeling, Kneeling, Healing, Sealing,
Dealing, Stealing, Reeling, Revealing.
Now I can see all the truths unrevealing
My senses going out, my temper also peeling

Whatever I see, I feel like killing
'Cause my life's been, hardly at all thrilling
Always within my brain, I feel holes are drilling
Tension building up, while pores are filling

Yet I can't find a minute, when I can be chilling...

Aisa Kyun?

Another poem from the yesteryears...


Meri zindagi ki har-ek saans,
Kehti hai tu hai aas-paas
Aayegi ek din aur bujhaayegi meri pyaas,
Tab tak lagata rahoonga main teri hi aas

Kohinoor ka hira hai tu, sadaa ke liye
Tujhe dekhne ko hi to, hai yeh dil jiye
Gham ke aansoon, khushi-khushi piye,
Par dil pe lage ghaav, phir bhi na siye

Sapna sach ho mera, mile jo tera saath
Meri duniya main bahaar aaye jo ban jaaye apni baat
Ab to hai intezaar us din ka, jab milenge apne haath
Umeed hai ab nahi door hoga, chahe woh din ho ya raat

Tu jo kahe to tod laoon main woh chaand aur taare
Chahe kitne hi door ho ya chamke kitne hi woh sitare
Do jism ek ruuh ho jab mil jaaye dil hamare
Tera saath mile to rok doon, main barsaat ki bhi dhaare

Tu jo mere saath ho to toofano ko mein rok doon
Apne pyar ki taakat hai, jo duniya ko bhi tok sakoon
Tera saath mile jo mujhko, chod doon main sab sukoon
Phir bhi tu na paas aaye, hai aakhir aisa kyun?

An Ode To IB

My feelings towards my High School Diploma (IB) written in another old poem


(When the course began...)

Spelling In-ter-na-tio-nal Bac-ca-lau-re-ate
I thought was enough to tell my fate...
I knew there was no way it could ever be easy,
But neither did I think it would make me go crazy!

Some ex-IB grads told me
"So you are doing IB...
Then you must have a strong heart
'Cause its soon gonna be hit by many a dart!

Consider your school as a huge web,
With the school staff making up for the scab...
The IB course is then the spider
And YOU are the victim of this rider!"

To say the least, IB is there as a nightmare,
Which caused my hands to shake and my legs could neither bear!
The pressure from IB had already begun
And so did the wait for the rise of a new sun!

(After the course is over...)

Work is the word which accumulates it all...
Since this is what defines the toll
The more you work, the less the toll,
So you will only rise, never to fall...

However, with EE, PSOW and CAS also to do
Only this key, won't get you through...
So the list also includes enthusiasm and determination,
Which will impress others, much to your fascination!

I won't say that IB has a lot for you to worry,
But it doesn't mean that you can do it in a scurry!
Just be patient...and relax,
And the next thing you know...a 45's on your fax!

Apni Judaai

Another old one and yet another "twist"!


Tum bin mera jeevan hai, woh sukhaa hua khet
Jis mein baarish na ho, bas rehti ho reth
Ab to bas karna hai, mujhko tumhara wait,
Chaahe tum na aao, ya phir, chalo on a date!

Aake chle gaye, hawa ke kayi jhonke
Phir bhi, milne ko tumse, mile na mujhko mauke
Ab to bas dikhti ho tum, sapne main mujhko soke
Kyunki yeh gile-shikwe, tumse milne se mujhe roke

Ghamo ka pahaar tuta, jo hui apni judaai
Sapne saare saagar main dube, jo lee tune vidaai
Ab to himmat na juta sakoon main, dene ko kisi ko badhaai
Kyunki jahan bhi jaaoon, mujhko bas teri hi yaad sataayi

Tere bin nahi hai, ab to mera koi sansaar
Kyunki mere jeevan ka, tum ban gaye ho adhaar
Chahe isko ishq kaho ya kaho ise pyar
Par tum jeena, na-jeena, hain bas yehi mere vichaar

Tum bin nahi hai, mujh mein kisi ko harane ka dum
Kyunki zindagi main khushi nahi bas gham hi hai hardam
Kisi par aitbaar nahi, yeh meri zindagi ki hai sargam
Mann bechain hota rahe, kyunki yeh dil hai nam

Jab dekha tha tumko, aur mile the apne nain
Tabse luti hai meri, raat ki neend aur din ka chain
Ab bhi yaad hai mujhko tumhare haathon ka coke ka can
Ab to aa jao waapas, warna ban na padega mujhko "Hollow Man!"

Apna Milan

Another old poem but with a surprise at the end!


Jheelon ke us paar, nadiya ke aar-paar
Hai jahaan par pahaar do char
Wahaan hota hai viksit woh aakaar
Jise dekh aaye, mere jeevan main bahaar

Use dekh aaye, mere jeevan main khushiyaan
Jinhe dekh phuli na samaaye yeh kaliyaan
Tera intezaar karoon main utni sadiyaan
Jab tak chhod na de, chehchana saari chidiyaan

Tum bin, kaale megha, mere dil main bas jaaye
Aur sapno main bhi dikhe, mujhko tere hi saaye
Sooni waadiyon main jaise sarsarati hawaayein
Waise teri chahat main, bhatka main apni raahein

Apna milan hoga do saagaron ka takraav
Jismein na ho bikhraav, bas badta chale bahaav
Dhire-dhire chade hum, saare ke saare padaav
Taki rok sake na koi, chahe aaye kitne hi algaav

Banke rahe hum, lahoo ke woh do rang
Jo hain to alag-alag, par rehte hain sang-sang
Jinko dekh ho jaaye, saari duniya bhi dung
Kyunki dard kisi ko ho, zakhmi kisi ka ang

Sanam tumhare liye main, de doon kitni hi qurbani
Bas kar do tum mujh par, ek chhoti si meharbani
Na raho mujhse door, jaise koi anjaani
Aur maanlo tum, mujhko apna "Raja Hindustani"!

(WIthout) You

Another one from days gone by...


Sitting in a bar,
Looking at a star,
That I saw the other day in the car
When you looked nearer to me than far

However, things do change with time
Turning sour lemon from sweet lime
Now my conscience makes me feel guilty
Even though I know that I was never filthy

Ever since I've never really recovered from the shock
Sitting alone with the label "out of stock"
I don't know how I got dazzled with that frock
Which you wore, while walking through my block

Those enticing eyes, those absorbing looks,
Have still left me stunned and mentally confused
So then now, what am I supposed to do?
Nothing really, just another drink and decide where to go

Tumhare Liye (For You)

Mixing Hindi and English...works surprisingly well!


I've been watching you for way too long
Making up the rhythms, setting up a song
Someday, I will sing it out aloud
Even if you are alone or one in the crowd

Haan tumhare liye hi, gaoonga main woh gaana
Kyunki tumko hai ab mujhko apne paas laana
Kabhi na kabhi to tum paas aaogi hi jaana
Tab mil beth kar khaayenge apni pasand ka khaana

Oh, please don't misunderstand my intentions
Do trust my decency from all dimensions
Without you, my heart will be cut in a million sections
Leaving me poisoned or hanging on rope suspensions

Tumhare bina hoon main, chaand ka woh tukda
Jiska andhere main, chupa hua hai mukhda
Ab to aake khila do tum meri zindagi main ujala
Taaki khushiyon se bhar jaaye mere dil ka sukhaa pyaala

Fresher's Day Party

Must've been some fun times when I wrote this


Everybody, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon!
Fresher's Day Party, let's bring it on!
Time's passing on, we're waiting for a song
The fun part's on, with nothing wrong

After passing a screening test,
The party brings out, the very best
So admirations come, from the rest
While everyone enjoys the fest!

These terrific dances, these silky voices
Are a few of the available variety of choices
The excellent acting during the plays
Do not require any external praise

The cool members set up the show
Amusing the audience row-by-row
They are all stunned head-to-toe
'Cause its Fresher's Day Party, so let's go-go-go...

Tera Pyar

Here's another poem I wrote years ago


Tumse hai pyar, yeh main nahi kehta
Phir bhi hoon tadapta, dard ko sehta
Badi mushkil se hoon, tere bina zinda rehta
Kya karoon - tere pyar ke nashe main hoon behta

Us pyar ke nashe main hoon main behka
Jise soch kar, mera dil hai dehka
Teri khushboo se, main hoon mehka
Jaise ki kaliyan khilne par, phool hai chehka

Kaisa yeh nasha hai, kaisa yeh khumaar hai
Aisa tera pyar hai, aayi jaise bahaar hai
Nahi inkaar hai, na ikraar hai
Ab to kuch keh de, dil yeh bekaraar hai

Tere bina ab yeh nahi jee paayega
Kyunki tera pyar, zindagi bhar satayega
Tere ishq main, yeh tadapta reh jaayega
Tere baare main hi sochta reh jaayega

Happy Teacher's Day!

I was going through some old stuff I had lying around, when I came across some poems I had written a while ago...figured I'd post them all here as well

I have no idea when/why I wrote this but apparently I did!...its a good poem I suppose...certainly reminds me of high school


Everybody, let me hear you say,
2004, Happy Teacher's Day!
Its time, we all pay,
Tribute to those who show us the ray
To success in their own way

They help us decide our fate,
Understanding what we like and hate
Their presence of mind helps us understand our state,
And so, I can happily say, "You all are majestically great!"

Be it sports or be it studies,
Working alone or with buddies
You have always been there with support,
Even in our problems, like an escort

Therefore, I plead to you, please remain the same,
Helping us earn, name and fame
Finally, everybody loudly say,
2004, Happy Teacher's Day!

Final Words

There's a fire rising within my heart
As my soul continues to burn
With the open wounds that you've left me
My life continues to wither away

Deep beneath the ashes lies my soul
That you cursed upon when we separated
And so now I'm all alone, wondering what's changed
As the weight of our love crushes me away

The distances that arose between ourselves
Continue to haunt me even today
As I stand here looking at the past
I realize what a fool I've been

There's no denying that I really miss you
From the moment you said that we are through
But I cannot change what's already gone
So I leave you with these final words...

Destiny

I was just wondering the other day,
Why our lives are so dull
Struggling to make ends meet
Why can't we just walk on the road to freedom

Trying to reach those goals,
Ones that we didn't even accept
We give up what we truly want
And end up having nothing at all

I'd love to go on long road trips
Seeing new places along the way
Meeting new people, making new friends
But alas life isn't as easy as it may appear

So I'm sitting here thinking what I can do
Yet nothing at all seems to solve my problems
And so I continue to think about where I could've been
Had such a life not been my destiny

Dream

Days come and pass by yet you remain in my heart
Even as my life rots away I'm still waiting for a new start
Upon your answer, my life still hangs in waiting
But it seems like I'm a castaway - for whom no one cares

Its funny how my mind is always clouded with your thoughts
Yet you are busy within your own life, nowhere to be seen
I pass by your neighborhood everyday just to see you smile,
Yet you discard my living as if I'm not even there

Here I'm dying just to get another view of you
While, for you, its all over and we are already through
I can't give up now though, because I've come too far
Now my life hangs in balance and I can't afford to lose

I still can't believe how ugly things have turned
You have gone miles away and my life has fallen apart
Yet I'm still waiting even if its as foolish as it seems
Because its my only hope and you are my only dream

Daraar

Humein ruksat kiya apni sar zameen se
Chhod chale majdhar mein is zindagi ko
Ittefaq hi hoga jo aaj bhi intezaar hai
Ki waqt woh lautega aur phir se aayegi bahaar

Ussi ke khwaabon main yeh mann kyun bhatakta hai
Dekhne ko use ek pal, yeh dil kyun tadapta hai
Jab zindagi se meri tum ja hi chuke ho
To yaadon mein teri yeh dard kyun rehta hai

Kehne ko to yun, akele hum jee bhi lenge
Judaai ke aansoon, hum pee bhi lenge
Tumse aitbaar na kiya, lekin yeh gham satayega
Issi kashish main, sarhadein hum see bhi lenge

Dard hai kuch dil mein jo tumhein bhoolane na dega
Jo beetaye the saath pal woh hamesha yaad aayenge
Phir chahe yeh dooriyan kabhi na khatam ho
Jo dil mein hai tumse daraar, yeh kabhi na mitegi

When I'm With You

If I only lived another moment, I'd spend it with you
If I died this very moment, I'd wanna be with you
You may never realize how much I truly love you
But my existence is only complete when I'm with you

People have a lot of ambitions in life
But my only wish is to have you in my arms
For that I'd happily die several times everyday
For happiness with you around surpasses eternity

People search for divinity all their lives
But I found purity, the day I met you
The essence of my life shines through your soul
And so now my mere living is to see you smile

If I had the strength, I'd learn everything about you
If I had the heart, I'd take your problems from you
You may never realize but I can't live without you
'Coz my life reaches salvation when I'm with you

Rooh-E-Ishq

Saanson main meri hai teri sargam
Yaadon mein meri bas tu hai hardam
Jitna hai pyar sab tujhko de doon
Jab ho jaaye phir se apna sangam

Tune kya jaadoo kiya, bhula na paoon tujhe
Adaayein yeh teri, deewana banaye mujhe
Phir aise mein kyun tanha mujhe chhod gayi
Kabhi laut aana aur bata dena wajah mujhe

Is zindagi ko jeene ki wajah ho tum
Ho mera jahan, yeh aasmaan ho tum
Dekhta hoon roz tumhein, par chuu na poon
Ki kya khafa maine, jo yeh saza ho tum

Ek ghar ho jismein hum tum rahein
Saath saath chale, dard sab sahein
Kyunki tum bin zindagi adhoori si lage
Kashish hai meri, kaise yeh tumse kahein

Meri chahat ka manzar ho tum
Mohabbat ka aftab ho tum
Sar zameen par chaaye ho meri
Rooh-e-ishq ka noor ho tum

Until I Met You...

I always thought life was meant to be lived alone
I always thought my pains were only my own
And so I lived with these feelings within my heart
Until I met you and I had a whole new start

Life to me was all about loneliness and pain
It had no happiness and there was nothing to gain
But then I met you and you took away my despair
Giving me your faith and showing how life can be fair

Lost in my own world, my thoughts were clouded
Left all alone, my feelings were shrouded
But then I met you and I could no longer conceal
Because you see right through me, you know how I feel

Anguish and fear were like my soul mates
Depression and sorrow were my only mind states
Agony and suffering were part of my fate
I had lost all hope while being consumed by hate...

Until I met you...

Your Smile

Part of me still wishes to meet you
Even though I know that we are through
Maybe its destiny that I'm lost in your soul
Disembarking my life, stuck in this muddy hole

Searching for happiness within this dark place
Battling against time, trying to win this race
I have to get to you, before its too late
Before my life gets consumed and is filled with hate

You are the only one who can free me from this pain
Withdrawing this anguish, letting go of this strain
Embracing your heart is the only melody that I seek
It will hold me together, not making me feel weak

Within the memories of us together, I remain confined
While strings that hold my life, continue to unbind
Flowers that blossom, shape up our profile
As I see sadness, hidden beneath your smile

Survive

Wishing upon a falling star
Always wondering where you are
Feeling that you miss me too
My life has turned all subdue

My soul is lacking your passion
Sensing a growing obsession
Your thoughts make me feel timid
I can still see your face vivid

Speculations arose that you are around
Within my heart, your voices resound
But my wishes continue to turn into ashes
My words reprise and haunt me as lashes

As days pass, I continue to wither
Remembering the days when I would dither
Seeing you soon is the wish upon which I thrive
And that is my life, upon which I survive

Memories

Memories infused with the smell of roses
Instigate your thoughts within my mind
Enclosed within my own little shell
I see them devour all that's left of me

It reminds me of a lot of things
Things that i try moving ahead of...
But they keep catching up to me
Bringing me back where it all began

The warmth of your love soothes my soul
The depth of my heart enveloped by your affection
Caressing me ever so softly and gently
Your tender care relieves me of this pain

Like the unwinding circle of mother nature
I'm haunted by what's already long gone
Despite the distances that exist between us
I continue living upon that tiny shred of hope

Reminiscence

Shadows beneath the clouds, tears within the rain
Memories of us together that have left me with a stain.
Ashes falling with wind, fear within this pain
Losing my conscience daily, even my death does refrain.

Stress within this darkness, anger within this flame
Despite my constant struggle, my feelings remain the same.
Fazing of the mist, irreverence of the sun
This world has left me, isolated and shun.

Insolence of the sky has slowed down my pace
Obscurity has me shut, within a tight space.
Earth seems to confine me daily as per its grace
Annihilating my senses, making me give up this race.

Heaven disproves my existence, hell divides my insistence
Conquering my motivation, plaguing my persistence.
When nature and its forces are close to my destruction
Reminiscence of those days is my only obstruction.

Wish

You came into my life as the only glimmer of hope
You showed me through your eyes, how easy life is to cope
The butterfly that points towards one's life's existence
Your crimson light shows the value of one's life through insistence

Your closeness to my soul brings a fresh aura into my life
Helping me survive my struggles, strive through my strife
You are the piece of gem that shines through your honesty
My very essence of life reflects within your modesty

Your importance to my survival is something I can't explain
Your support through these hardships is the only way I can sustain
Without you in my life, my life begins to shatter
As if my life and death, doesn't seem to matter

These barriers and limitations can be upheld if only you wanted
Our wants and wishes could come true if only you granted
My destination begins and ends whenever i see you
My only wish is to see us together and I hope it becomes true

Dasha

Aashiyaane ghum, teri yaad mein yeh dil tarasta hai
Kaanpte hain yeh kadam, jab bhi dekhte woh rasta hai
Jism-o-jaan main mere, teri rooh hai har jagah samaye hui
Har waqt kehti hai mujhse, kaash aa kar mujhe rulaye koi

Kashmakash hai meri, tumne kiya mujh par aitbaar kyun nahi
Agar chahat nahi thi, to phir iska izhaar kiya kyun nahi
Ab jab ho gaye hain hum ruswa, kya tumhe meri yaad aati hai?
Raaton ko sapno mein khwaab ban kar, kya yeh tumhe satati hai?

Mere ishq ka rutba, sarhade nahi pehchanta hai
Tumse hai mujhe pyar, bas yeh itna jaanta hai
Mere dil ke aashne main ab bhi tumhara nazariya hai
Chahe kitni hi mushkil phir yeh zindagi ki dagariya hai

Bebasi ka alam hai, tum bin jeeya na jaaye
Dekhoon jahan wahan dikhte hain tumhare saaye
Haan bas itna sa hai yeh meri mohabbat ka nasha
Maut se bhi badatar hai aisi zindagi ki dasha

Shades Of Blue

In the beautiful sky, among those 1000 shades of blue
I see a lucid, vivid picture that reminds me of only you
My dignity flows amongst your very essence of existence
My happiness - a relative term, depends on your loyal diligence

Meticulously sculptured, you are the talisman of divinity
When darkness falls, you are the light of my sanity
In this blind, faithless world, you are my realization of truth
Even after all these pains hurt, my only hope of soothe

Shimmering pearls fall through my eyes all the time
A treasure so worthless that its not even worth a dime
Yet they do contain all the good and bad memories we shared
All those times I lived and died when there was someone who cared

Everyday without you, I burn in a passive agony of fire
That slowly consumes me, flaring all I wish and desire
Yet till you are by my side, I shall continue to abide
For what happens with us, is something only you can decide

Suroor

Saaki o mere...teri yaadon main tarasta hoon
Andheri in raaton mein...toofano main barasta hoon
Saazish hai yeh koi...jo tum humein yun tod gaye
Tanhayee mein, aatish main, bilakhta chhod gaye

Lahoo ke aansoo ab hum peeye ja rahe hain
Tadapte tumhari yaadon main, hum jeeye ja rahe hain
Saanjh savere yahi dhoondte phirte hai
Ki zindagi ki majdhaar main, phir kab humare raaste milte hai

In baarish ke motiyon main apni yaadein hain chhupi
Dard bhare nagme mere, inke girne ki aahat main hain sabhi
Tumhare intezaar main yeh baadalon main hai chhupe tabhi
Haan isi ke intezaar main hain hum, ek din aayega aisa kabhi

Meri zindagi ki aaftaab hai tumhari yeh khoobsurati
Aaghosh main hai humein leni, tumse nikle jo roshni
Tumhari saadgi ka aks meri zindagi ka noor hai
Tumhare bina jo hai ye bechaini, shayad yehi mera suroor hai

The Real Me

Ever felt cold, in the warmest of weathers?
Ever felt dead, within a living soul?
I have, 'coz my life serves no purpose
For the real me has long since gone

Pieces of rust are smothering me into ashes
Devouring on my realization of what's left of me
Monotony has surrounded my wishful remains
Smoldering what's left to cleanse my existence

My past is all that I leave behind
As I disperse into particles of dust
Caricatures of what's gone surrounds the air
While sculptures engrave my unwritten script

Defiance is a feature I sorely miss
As I come to terms with the reality
Inscriptions of the world are all I can follow now
For the real me has long since gone

Sarzish

Khuda tere hi vaaste
Main jeeye ja raha hoon
Diye hain jo tune woh raaste
Unhein liye ja raha hoon

Kya rishte kya naate
Sab tujh par hai qurbaan
Hain jo yeh tanha raatein
Na chodoonga inke koi nishaan

Akele hi aaye hain
Akele hi chal denge
Jo rishte na nibhaaye hain
Unse na ab tadpenge

Hothon ki larzish thi
Kashmakash yeh meri
Jo di yeh tumne sarzish thi
Hai ab meri zindagi andheri

Tanhayee

Tanhayee ke is safar mein
Kuch pal saath aap de gaye
Kismat thi jo phir chal diye
Warna bhool gaye the hum
Yeh tanhayee kya hoti hai

Khush-kismati thi yeh humari
Jo saath humara, aapne diya
Bebas chhod phir chal diye
Warna bhool gaye the hum
Yeh bewafai kya hoti hai

Kaafir bana main firta tha
Saath humara, aap de gaye
Akela chhod phir chal diye
Warna bhool gaye the hum
Pyar main ruswai kya hoti hai

Saanjh ke intezaar main tadapta tha
Do pal saath aap beth gaye
Phir ussi dhund main chhod chal diye
Warna bhool gaye the hum
Mohabbat main tabahi kya hoti hai

Sar Zameen

Aaj phir yaadein teri mujhe satane lagi
Aaj phir hawayein yeh kuch gungunane lagi
Aise main tera chehra mujhe kuch yun nazar aaya
Ek hi pal main jaise, mujhe meri zindagi nazar aane lagi

Meri chahat ki hai numaish ki andhero main chalna pade
Meri mohabbat ki hai aazmaish ki toofano se bhi ladna pade
Par hasi khushi teri khatir, main in sehraon mein chal padoon
Sabab ho agar yeh teri khushi ka, mile jo isse tujhe sukoon...

Chahe kitni hi phir yeh dooriyan kyun na ho,
Jo tum chaho to phir yeh sargoshiyan na ho
Bas ho apni khushiyan, aur yeh madhoshiyan
Un haseen palon main, yeh tanhaiyan na ho...

Yeh khamoshiyan teri, deti hain mujhe hosla
Yeh udasean meri, deti hain tujhe kya sila?
Meri to zindagi ab ho chuki hai teri sar zameen
Tujhe paane ke liye ab maut bhi lage mujhe badi haseen

Late

Although we r away, our feelings r still together
And so even if I die today, our souls shall live forever
Our love is meant to be, this I shall forever continue to believe
Even if it takes my lifetime for you to come, I'll consider it my destiny

As the days pass by, my loneliness comes back haunting me
And the more I abide, the more the world keeps on taunting me
Yet it doesn't affect me because I know they will be ridiculed
For the day that you come back to me, they won't be daunting me

The scent of your beauty still resides within my heart
Making me rebel this world, hoping for a whole new start
But alas my efforts would be in vain, unless you come back
'Coz I can't exist without you, you are my soul's essential part

You have heard my pleadings, now I can only continue to wait
That one day you will be back, there won't be any more hate
People tell me that I'm wasting my life, that its all over
Yet I listen to my heart that you will be back, even if its too late...

Jeevan Ki Aas

Aaj phir sapno main, unki humein hai bahut yaad aayi
Unhi ki khatir, yeh aankhen aansoon bhi na baha paayi
Par kya karoon hai meri kashmakash ki unse keh na sakoon
Zindagi to zindagi, maut se bhi na hoga kam mera yeh junoon

Maangi thi chahat to mohalat humein mili
Chahi thi apni tabahi to shohrat humein mili
Aawargi se meri, mujhe zillat bhi mili
Phir akhir kyon e-khuda, mujhe unki mohabbat na mili

Gham unke jaane ka nahi, aas unke aane ki hai
Vishwaas unko paane ka nahi, saansein unhe dene ki hai
Jinke sahare jeete hain, unki nazron main zindagi kat jaane ki hai
Zindagi mein nahi to kya, maut se apni roohein nibhaane ki hai

Dard-e-dil ka haal bayaan kar paana nahi aasaan
Raeth ke tilo main jaise bhatak raha ho pyasa
Bas is umeed par jeeta, ki koi le chale kuen ke paas
Tum hoge woh, hai mujhe vishwaas, aur yehi hai mere jeevan ki aas

Qabool

Teri chahat ko samarpit meri yeh zindagi hai
Teri har aahat ko sunna, meri tishnagi hai
Teri muskurahaton ko dekhna, meri khush-naseebi hai
Teri yaadon ko sametna, haan yeh bhi meri bekhudi hai

Zindagi yeh aasaan nahi, tujh bin e humsafar
Deewangi ka nasha chaya hai, mujh par kuch is kadar
Mannat hai yeh meri, saath rahein hum zindagi bhar
Yaadon mein, khwabon mein tere, beet jaati hai sehar

Ek saaya sa hai mujh par, jo rakhta hai duur humko
Tumse is pyar ka zikr na kar paoon, pata hai yeh sabko
Isliye subah shaam yaad karta rehta hoon main us rab ko
Ki ab to tu hi bata de, mere humdam, mere shab ko

Is pyar ke ehsaas ka hai duniya main koi mool nahi
Yeh pyar hai meri saadgi, yeh koi shool nahi
Isse paana hai meri kashish, yeh koi maqbool nahi
Issi ki khatir mar jaoonga, phir chahe usse yeh qabool nahi

Hanging By A Rope

That beautiful glow that shines through your eyes
Resides within my memories, where my feelings arise
Yet every new day, comes with its own surprise
So now I'm waiting for the day, when it'll be my demise

For being without you, is like not being at all
Like walking on a cliff, only waiting to fall
Like the very moment when even time starts to stall
That's when all our tender memories, I start to recall

Its difficult to express a feeling, that does not exist
Like why I still live this life and continue to persist
Its because of hope, 'coz a meet with you I can't resist
Even if my fate is destined, I will continue to insist

And so I live in this world, upon the tiny thread of hope
Because us being together is the maximum of my scope
My struggle to reduce these distances I can't continue to cope
So the day I lose my belief, you will see me hanging by a rope

Aansoon

Yaadon main meri base ho tum
Ban gaye ho is dil ki tum sargam
Nazuk hai yeh bada, jaise koi kusum
Todo na isko, mera jahaan hai yeh gham

Tanhayee ke raaste par ab to sirf tu hai meri shab
Zindagi ke dorahe par kya saath dega mera woh rab?
Tera intezaar ban gaya hai, mere jeene ka sabab
Jo tum mil gaye to, bhool jaoonga main sab

Jeene ki aas ab to main, tumse lagaaye betha hoon
Is dil ka ehsaas, tumhari yaadon se lagaaye sehta hoon
Dard-e-dil ke zakhm, is duniya se chipaye rakhta hoon
Tasveer par teri, yeh apni zindagi bitaye rehta hoon

Issi tamanna ke naate jeeta hoon, ki kabhi phir milenge
Aur ab jo mile, to phir kisi haal mein na bichdenge
Par taqdeer ka kaha hai, yeh dard kabhi na bharange
Apni zindagi se maut tak, yeh aansoon behte rahenge...

Forever

Walking down the memory lane, your thoughts came flashing back at me
Of how I craved for your happiness, it was all I ever wanted to see
But I never realized that you wanted to go away, you wanted to be free
And now sadness is all around me for it has now become my destiny

Even if you left me for a moment, I used to go into a state of depression
Now that you have left me forever, my feelings don't even have an expression
Yet miracles do occur and its the sole reason why I am still alive
To depict to this world, how for you, I am willing to strive

Wherever I see, I always look into your face
Of how you left me alone, even without a trace
Yet even when miles apart, you will be within my soul
For being with you, has become my life's ultimate goal

With your smile, comes the beautiful sunrise
Yet without you in my life, comes my demise...
But I will continue to abide by your demeanor
Until the day I die, or till I live forever...

Fariyaad

Jiske liye jeete hain, ussi ke haathon mar jaayenge
Khushiyan nahi to kya, ghamon ke dabaav se hi bhar jaayenge
Jis ehsaas par nyochavar hua hai yeh dil maula
Aaj unhi ki khatir, hum apna khoon bhi baha jaayenge

Jeete ji to nahi, maut se shayad apna milan ho
Roshni main nahi, shayad andhere main hi woh kiran ho
Jiski aas lagaaye betha hoon main zindagi bhar
Shayad us khuda ke paas hi meri kashmakash ka hal ho

Raeth ke mehelon jaisi hain meri sab khushiyan
Saagar ki lehron se inmein aa jati hain khamoshiyan
Jab se tum khafa ho kar gaye ho is zindagi se
Inmein basi hain sirf tumhari yaadein aur tanhaiyaan

Ab to jab talak rota hoon, bas mujhe tumhari yaad sataati hai
Bas yehi sochta rehta hoon, kab tak zindagi mera saath nibhaati hai
Jahaan dekhta hoon, bas tumhara chehra dikhayee padta hai
Kabhi to miloge tum, issi fariyaad par zindagi kat si jaati hai

Fighter

When we were together, you taught me joy and laughter
Now that you are gone, my life itself has become a laughter
Without you, desperation, frustration has taken over my existence
And now looking for you is my only aim, this is the only ordinance

Memories affluent of our old days, flow within my heart
Oh how i wish to god...if only we had a whole new start
But I know that lost time shall never come back
And so now, bitter realities I'm trying to hack

But alas, without you, my life is turning bleak
Lost in these memories, I'm growing weak
However, I won't give up till I find you again
Because the only hope of seeing you is keeping me sane

Now I see our memories spread like pebbles on the river floor
Drowning with the pressure, trying to get to the shore
But as these memories drown, it makes me feel lighter
And so I will reach the shore and will come out as a fighter...

Dard Bhare Nagme

Tujh bin in tanhaiyon ke bhanwar main phasa hoon
Tere pyar main unche sapno ko bhi liye kasa hoon
Vishwaas hai mujhe, tere jigar mein main hi basa hoon
Intezar par tera kehta hai mujhse, main hi teri saza hoon

Hui thi humse galtiyan...yeh mujhe kabool hai
Jee sakta hoon tum bin, yeh mera maqbool nahi
Ab mujhe andhero ke us par, roshni ki talaash hai
Is pyar main zindagi kya, maut ka bhi ehsaas nahi

Apne milan ko rokne ki chahe kitni bhi karle duniya saazish
Nahi rok paayegi, kyunki tum ban gaye ho meri zindagi ki aatish
Tum se hai meri zindagi, tumhi se hai meri roshni
Tum se hai meri bekhudi, tumhi se hai meri har khushi

Chahe apne beech ho saagar ki lehron ka faasla
Tumhein paane ki kashish mein main khounga nahi main honsla
Chahe hum na ho ab saath, par yeh yaadein ab bhi zinda hain
Dard bhare nagme hi sahi, par basa in mein bhi mera khuda hai...

Testify

Mystifying thoughts sustaining within my mind
Extravagant memories of yours, I continue to bind
Wondering what my life was, before you came to me
And now how everything has changed...you are my destiny

Aspirations of mine now cease to appear
Since that very day, when you had to disappear
Without you in my life, even death isn't a fear
And now i have to find you, taking even this world's jeer

We may be destinies apart, but our souls remain the same
And now my life without you, is like a photo without its frame
Like a human without his name, like a child without his game
Like a person without his fame, like a fire without its flame...

But don't you worry, I will survive
The reality of my life, I will defy
My search for you, I will justify
Giving this world, something to testify...

Agwah

Is jeevan ka adhaar tum hi se hai
Is zindagi main aayi bahaar tum hi se hai
Jannat ka zameen par uphaar tum hi se hai
Haan mujhe bhi sirf pyar tum hi se hai

Toofano ki in lehron main, tum meri kashti ho
Khwabon mein, in aankhon main, sirf tum hi basti ho
Chahaton ke is aalam main, tum mera sab kuch ho
Ab jo nahi ho zindagi main, sochta hoon na ab kuch ho.

Par dil main ab bhi umeed hai ki aaogi tum ek din
Magar darr is baat ka hai ki kaise rahoon tab tak tum bin
Ab to bas yaad karta hoon jo humne saath beetaye the pal
Woh hansi khushi ke din, jab tum hui karti thi badi chanchal

Par hai yeh kaisi kashmakash, kahaan gaye woh nagme?
Ab to jab sochta hoon, bas yaad aate hai woh sadme
Jinse ho gayi hai meri yeh zindagi tabah
Aur jinne kar liya hai, meri khushiyon ko agwah

Tumse Hai Chahat

Saanson main tum kuch is kadar sama gaye ho
Ki tumse doori ki soch se bhi yeh rooh kaanp jaati hai
Yaadon main aa kar is dil ko kuch aise behla jaati ho
Ki saanson mein mehak tumhari khushboo se aati hai

Tanha is safar main ab bas tumhara sahara hai
E-rab phir kyun tune cheena mujhse mera yaara hai
Mere hosho-hawaas par chaaya ab to mera dildaara hai
Woh pyar ka hai shola, suraj ki kirano se nikala ek angara hai

In andhero raaston par ab bhi kayi ujjale hai
Is dukh bhari zindagi main ab bhi kayi dilwale hai
Chahat bina chahe jeena nahi ho aasaan
Par sunle mere khuda, hum to maut ke bhi matwale hai

Aankhon se ashq motiyon jaise behte hai
Tum bin is zindagi main, hum kuch is kadar rehte hai
Ab to bas tumko itna sa kehne ki aas hai
Aaj bhi tumko chahte hai...hum bas itna kehte hai...

Humdard

Barishon ke baadal, jaise aasmaan main garajte rehte hain
Tum bin, in aankhon se aansoon bhi waise baraste rehte hain
Samundar ki lehrein, lehron par kashti, jaise chalti rehti hai
Tum bin, yeh zindagi bhi, kuch waise hi gujarti rehti hai

Viraan jungalo main hai jaise andhera basa
Teri yaadon ne hai kuch waise mujhe kasa.
Toofano ke bahaav main ho jaise koi saanp dasa
Tere zehreele pyar ka waise mujh par chaaya nasha

Lahoo behne ka kyon ho use koi gham
Jiske dil par laga hua ho koi zakhm.
Kya doge use tum koi khushi ya marham
Jiske dil ki koi chura gaya sargam.

To phir maut se woh kyun darte hain.
Jo zindagi par mar-gujarte hain
Phir zindagi main chahe sau dard hai
Magar mere e-khuda, tu to akhir humdard hai...

Set Us Free

Lost within my thoughts, tired of self-consciousness
Trying to unframe, just what is the mysteriousness
But alas, I only ended where I began
Seeing my dreams run away, that only hold you can

And so now I can see in only one direction
Where my love is only for your dedication
My life is all for your declaration
While all your miseries are, my suffocation

Now, only you can help me end this misery
By taking away this suffocation that resides within me
Helping us attain what we aspire to be
Oh and then that day, you shall set us free

Hope

I started on the notion that the world is full of pretentious people
Like a flower blossoming from the outside, but with a corrupt sepal
But even I hadn't imagined, that the journey would be full of hitches
Travelling to see the riches, but ended up in the ditches...

Not that it bothered me, oh no, not at all
For my expectations had since long, already started to fall
But even then, when the vivid reality struck me, I can't quite re-call
For those were the moments, when my life simply appeared to stall.

I know my expressions, may seem a little obscure
But, such are my findings, that I really don't see a cure
For it takes one to bring, the reality back ashore
But it takes two to cleanse it...so that its white, shiny and pure

But alas, we are all the same, looking for the easy way
The sun is shining in our face, yet we are looking for the light and ray
And so, oh dear god, today I can only wish and pray
That one day, all will realize that like water is to bay,
Our shelter is in the form of hope...if only we want it to stay...

Sifar

Aap ki umeedon par, hum khare na utre
Duniya ki is bheed main, phir se kahin hum bichre
Ab to khuda tere haathon main hai, meri zindagi ki majdhar
Roshni hai tu, aur andhere main hai yeh sansaar.

Dil main hai bas tera vishwaas, ab nahi hai mera koi mazhab
Ek pal ka milan ho usse, bas meri hai ab itni si talab
Mujhe hai e-rab tera vaasta, bejhijak mar jaaoonga us par
Maut main bhi hoga tera aashiyana, haath jo rakh de tu hum par

Zindagi yeh teri khatir kar doon main ab to qurbaan
Sooli par bhi chad jaoon khushi se, dil hua hai tujh par parwaan
Meri chahat ki diwangi, tujh par hui hai yun bekadar
Ki tujh bin yeh kuch nahi, meri zindagi main hai sifar.

Life's Jury

Another day's just passed, yet you are no where in sight
But I'm still waiting even if chances don't look bright
Just to be with you, I'll put through all my might
And then maybe you'll realize that love isn't about wrong or right

I remember you told me that our destinies aren't the same
And so I duly ask you, do you believe in fame?
Because that's what you are for me, and this isn't any game
I only live for you, and from you, comes my name...

Please never say to me, that you've had enough
Because life for me, without you, won't even be just tough
You can say that i'll live, altho it will be rough
But I hate to disagree, you will only see me going buff...

With all due honesty, I'm still unsure of my feeling
But ever since you've gone, my life's simply been reeling
Almost as if my life, from me, some1's been stealing
Yet I live on, while my feelings for u continue peeling

And so, today when I finally think I know, I ask you
Is it too late, or do we still have a chance to make it through?
Because now I know that without you, life shall only serve me fury
And so please tell me what you think, while I'm waiting on life's jury

Wafa

Ghamon main bichchi thi meri zindagi ki kahaani
Phir aaye tum, sunane isse chahat ki zubaani
Ishq hua humein...ban gayi tu diwani
Aisa vaada kiya humne, ki maut bhi saath hai nibhaani

Par jab aaknhon par se dhund ke badal chate
Kuch hi palon main meri zindagi se tum hate
Phir to rab hi jaane, kaise hain yeh din kate
Gham din main, tanhayee raat main bate

Andheron main doobi hai meri yeh duniya
Jabse tumne looti hain, meri sab khushiyan
Ab to angaaron main chal kar main yun jeeta hoon
Duniya bhar ke aansoon, ghut ghut kar peeta hoon

Kya mujhe hai pyar, abhi tak iska ehsaas nahi
Par tum bin jee na sakoonga, iska hai aabhaas sahi
Ab to kuch aise gham-e-rooh ban gaye ho tum mere
Ki dekhoon na tumhein to, din main bhi ho jaate hai andhere

Haan meri saanson main ab bhi bas tumhari mehak hai
Sunta hoon jahaan, dekhta hoon jahaan...bas tumhari chahek hai
Sabab hai tumhara, ki maut bhi mujhse hai khafa
Aur isliye maangta hoon tumse mannat, bas de do mujhe apni wafa.

Yeh Chahat

Tumhari adaoon ko kya dekha, hua yeh dil deewana hai
Tumhari nigaahon ko kya parkha, hua yeh dil afsana hai
Tumhari saanson se hi to yeh zamaana mehka hai
Tumhare khwaabon se hi to tanha yeh jag ab rehta hai.

Kis kadar tumse humein hai chahat, iska humein ehsaas nahi
Kis kadar tumse milti hai raahat, kyun iska tumhein aabhaas nahi
Nazar utha kar jo tum dekh lo, khushiyan milein humein baar baar
Iska tumhein kaise karayein aetbaar, itni si humein aahat nahi.

Saanson mein tum rehte ho, rooh main ho samaaye
Zindagi main tum sama jaana, phir chahe maut bhi aa jaaye
Tanhayee ke is safar main, meri tum har tamanna ho
Is dil main kisi ki jagah nahi, jo khushiyon ko tum ho bhaaye

E khuda....kya yeh chahat tujhko maqbool hai?
Agar nahi, to kya meri maut tujhko kabool hai?
Is sansaar main uske bina main jee na sakoonga
Ghamon se kya...khushiyon se bhi main tadap uthoonga...

Dil Ki Chahat

Tanhaiyon main jeene ki aadat si ho gayi hai
Tumhare khayalon main khone si chahat si ho gayi hai
Mohabbat ka izhaar phir bhi tumse na kar sakoon
Bas ab itni si ghabrahat si ho gayi hai

Andheron main, ujalon main, bas tumhein dhoondta rehta hoon
Dil ki har dhadkan mein tumhein mehsoos karta rehta hoon
Meri zindagi ka tum ban gaye ho junoon
Par phir bhi tumhein iska izhaar kar na sakoon

Dekhta hoon jo tumhein, meri saansein ruk si jaati hain
Sun leta hoon tumhein to yeh zindagi tham si jaati hain
Sapno main bhi tumko apne paas ab mangoon main
Zindagi main zindagi, tumhare khwabon se aati hain.

In andhero main tum meri roshni ban gaye ho
Jism hai mera, rooh tum ban gaye ho
Tum bin, mere sapne bhi ab saare hai jaayenge so
Haan, is kadar tum is dil ki chahat ban gaye ho

God's Platter

It was another usual day,
When my thoughts were on our fray
When you left me forever to stay
And ever since, my life's been all dark and gray

You know very well, that I still miss you
If only I could show you what I have been through
To others, I still, may seem placid
But my eyes are stuck on that bottle of acid.

To wish you will return, would be too much to ask
Especially since, I'm still wearing the guilty mask
By keeping you away, god's giving me the lashes
Forcing me to die everyday, waiting for the ashes

I know that life's just a bullet away
While I, as always, continue to sway
But I'd rather die everyday, for the ones that matter
Than have my life served, in a god's platter...