God's Platter

It was another usual day,
When my thoughts were on our fray
When you left me forever to stay
And ever since, my life's been all dark and gray

You know very well, that I still miss you
If only I could show you what I have been through
To others, I still, may seem placid
But my eyes are stuck on that bottle of acid.

To wish you will return, would be too much to ask
Especially since, I'm still wearing the guilty mask
By keeping you away, god's giving me the lashes
Forcing me to die everyday, waiting for the ashes

I know that life's just a bullet away
While I, as always, continue to sway
But I'd rather die everyday, for the ones that matter
Than have my life served, in a god's platter...