Jhilmil Jhakaas (JJ)

One of my all time favorite poems...certainly the longest I've ever written...I wrote this when I was about to leave India to come here...this was part of my farewell "gift" to our group JJ...check it out!


Once upon a time, there were 12 different friends
Having different natures, having different trends
They had their fights, but then made their amends
'Cause they were all, held together by friendship bands

(Welcome to JJ...the loop begins...now)

Abhishek (Golcha) is the first one
And he has muscles, more than a ton
He is next year's North East terror boss
So you better be scared of him or else its your own loss!

Adhaar (Swaroop Agarwal) is the next to come
Always playing pranks or being troublesome
His PJ's (Parag Scale) are difficult to handle
Always wanting you to hit him with a sandal!

Ashish (Garg) is the next to bid - he's the "Big" kid
'Cause even till 9th, he drank milk from a bottle lid!
His nature is certainly very weird to chart
But it doesn't matter, since he's always good at heart

Our big CC, Manish (Agarwala) is next,
Always spending money on girls, or sending them text
Reaching his fart level is where everyone is to fail
And that's why we have our own "Manish Scale"!

Nitesh (Kumar Srivastava) is next on the list,
And he's got a temper which is always on the mist
He can easily rank on top of others and quit lagging
But that's only gonna happen when he quits fagging

Rahul (Saraf / Chintu) is the next one,
An excellent kid and a dream son (Nitesh's)
He's the one to look for when searching for fun
And this I say seriously, with no intended pun!

Rohit (Chawla / Gujju) is the one I highly rate
And this is so, because girls of his state, I find great!
If I write about your "khujli", I don't know about my fate
But you should mimic Tales Spin's Baloo and I mean it, mate!

Shantanu (Singh Chikara) is the kool guy
Passing around as an IEI executive, oh my!
He will tell you, about your mistakes
Although too many, For Goodness Sake!

Siddharth (Agarwala) is the one to deeply think
And this you can tell, even without a blink
The time he takes to get ready is even more than girls
Always cleansing his skin and combing his curls!

Sourabh (Sipani) is the 24X7 working chap,
One who's always got a book in his lap
He is the idiotic yet comical character
Who has no interest towards the "C" factor!

Vaibhav (Jalan) is the guy who's always on fire
Give him some ice and he'll give back more angry desire!
But I still hope, the "Chocolate Boy" reaches his N(a)as(h)a
'Cause that's when he'll fulfill his "aashaa"!

Lastly, Himanshu (Shringi), me, fills this JJ loop
Where I am the emotional part of this funky troop
But still a unique set of Parag's is what I hold
Although, to reach 10 Parag, it ain't enough to be brave and bold

(JJ loop ends here...Please go back to the start)

Now, I do heartily say that I will miss you all,
Regardless of how much I rise...or even if I fall
So always be prepared for my SMS or call
Although, as you know, I won't pay the toll!

Feelings

Another old poem...Its "unique" to say the least


Motivation, Inspiration, Destination, Frustration,
Expectation, Anticipation, Situation, Devastation.
I look for laughter, only to end up facing suppression
I try to remain happy, but I only face depression

My life's been all about faces without expression,
Looking for expansion, but ending with compression
Should I remain calm or should I show aggression?
Whatever I do, I can't resist the oppression

Feeling, Kneeling, Healing, Sealing,
Dealing, Stealing, Reeling, Revealing.
Now I can see all the truths unrevealing
My senses going out, my temper also peeling

Whatever I see, I feel like killing
'Cause my life's been, hardly at all thrilling
Always within my brain, I feel holes are drilling
Tension building up, while pores are filling

Yet I can't find a minute, when I can be chilling...

Aisa Kyun?

Another poem from the yesteryears...


Meri zindagi ki har-ek saans,
Kehti hai tu hai aas-paas
Aayegi ek din aur bujhaayegi meri pyaas,
Tab tak lagata rahoonga main teri hi aas

Kohinoor ka hira hai tu, sadaa ke liye
Tujhe dekhne ko hi to, hai yeh dil jiye
Gham ke aansoon, khushi-khushi piye,
Par dil pe lage ghaav, phir bhi na siye

Sapna sach ho mera, mile jo tera saath
Meri duniya main bahaar aaye jo ban jaaye apni baat
Ab to hai intezaar us din ka, jab milenge apne haath
Umeed hai ab nahi door hoga, chahe woh din ho ya raat

Tu jo kahe to tod laoon main woh chaand aur taare
Chahe kitne hi door ho ya chamke kitne hi woh sitare
Do jism ek ruuh ho jab mil jaaye dil hamare
Tera saath mile to rok doon, main barsaat ki bhi dhaare

Tu jo mere saath ho to toofano ko mein rok doon
Apne pyar ki taakat hai, jo duniya ko bhi tok sakoon
Tera saath mile jo mujhko, chod doon main sab sukoon
Phir bhi tu na paas aaye, hai aakhir aisa kyun?

An Ode To IB

My feelings towards my High School Diploma (IB) written in another old poem


(When the course began...)

Spelling In-ter-na-tio-nal Bac-ca-lau-re-ate
I thought was enough to tell my fate...
I knew there was no way it could ever be easy,
But neither did I think it would make me go crazy!

Some ex-IB grads told me
"So you are doing IB...
Then you must have a strong heart
'Cause its soon gonna be hit by many a dart!

Consider your school as a huge web,
With the school staff making up for the scab...
The IB course is then the spider
And YOU are the victim of this rider!"

To say the least, IB is there as a nightmare,
Which caused my hands to shake and my legs could neither bear!
The pressure from IB had already begun
And so did the wait for the rise of a new sun!

(After the course is over...)

Work is the word which accumulates it all...
Since this is what defines the toll
The more you work, the less the toll,
So you will only rise, never to fall...

However, with EE, PSOW and CAS also to do
Only this key, won't get you through...
So the list also includes enthusiasm and determination,
Which will impress others, much to your fascination!

I won't say that IB has a lot for you to worry,
But it doesn't mean that you can do it in a scurry!
Just be patient...and relax,
And the next thing you know...a 45's on your fax!

Apni Judaai

Another old one and yet another "twist"!


Tum bin mera jeevan hai, woh sukhaa hua khet
Jis mein baarish na ho, bas rehti ho reth
Ab to bas karna hai, mujhko tumhara wait,
Chaahe tum na aao, ya phir, chalo on a date!

Aake chle gaye, hawa ke kayi jhonke
Phir bhi, milne ko tumse, mile na mujhko mauke
Ab to bas dikhti ho tum, sapne main mujhko soke
Kyunki yeh gile-shikwe, tumse milne se mujhe roke

Ghamo ka pahaar tuta, jo hui apni judaai
Sapne saare saagar main dube, jo lee tune vidaai
Ab to himmat na juta sakoon main, dene ko kisi ko badhaai
Kyunki jahan bhi jaaoon, mujhko bas teri hi yaad sataayi

Tere bin nahi hai, ab to mera koi sansaar
Kyunki mere jeevan ka, tum ban gaye ho adhaar
Chahe isko ishq kaho ya kaho ise pyar
Par tum jeena, na-jeena, hain bas yehi mere vichaar

Tum bin nahi hai, mujh mein kisi ko harane ka dum
Kyunki zindagi main khushi nahi bas gham hi hai hardam
Kisi par aitbaar nahi, yeh meri zindagi ki hai sargam
Mann bechain hota rahe, kyunki yeh dil hai nam

Jab dekha tha tumko, aur mile the apne nain
Tabse luti hai meri, raat ki neend aur din ka chain
Ab bhi yaad hai mujhko tumhare haathon ka coke ka can
Ab to aa jao waapas, warna ban na padega mujhko "Hollow Man!"

Apna Milan

Another old poem but with a surprise at the end!


Jheelon ke us paar, nadiya ke aar-paar
Hai jahaan par pahaar do char
Wahaan hota hai viksit woh aakaar
Jise dekh aaye, mere jeevan main bahaar

Use dekh aaye, mere jeevan main khushiyaan
Jinhe dekh phuli na samaaye yeh kaliyaan
Tera intezaar karoon main utni sadiyaan
Jab tak chhod na de, chehchana saari chidiyaan

Tum bin, kaale megha, mere dil main bas jaaye
Aur sapno main bhi dikhe, mujhko tere hi saaye
Sooni waadiyon main jaise sarsarati hawaayein
Waise teri chahat main, bhatka main apni raahein

Apna milan hoga do saagaron ka takraav
Jismein na ho bikhraav, bas badta chale bahaav
Dhire-dhire chade hum, saare ke saare padaav
Taki rok sake na koi, chahe aaye kitne hi algaav

Banke rahe hum, lahoo ke woh do rang
Jo hain to alag-alag, par rehte hain sang-sang
Jinko dekh ho jaaye, saari duniya bhi dung
Kyunki dard kisi ko ho, zakhmi kisi ka ang

Sanam tumhare liye main, de doon kitni hi qurbani
Bas kar do tum mujh par, ek chhoti si meharbani
Na raho mujhse door, jaise koi anjaani
Aur maanlo tum, mujhko apna "Raja Hindustani"!

(WIthout) You

Another one from days gone by...


Sitting in a bar,
Looking at a star,
That I saw the other day in the car
When you looked nearer to me than far

However, things do change with time
Turning sour lemon from sweet lime
Now my conscience makes me feel guilty
Even though I know that I was never filthy

Ever since I've never really recovered from the shock
Sitting alone with the label "out of stock"
I don't know how I got dazzled with that frock
Which you wore, while walking through my block

Those enticing eyes, those absorbing looks,
Have still left me stunned and mentally confused
So then now, what am I supposed to do?
Nothing really, just another drink and decide where to go

Tumhare Liye (For You)

Mixing Hindi and English...works surprisingly well!


I've been watching you for way too long
Making up the rhythms, setting up a song
Someday, I will sing it out aloud
Even if you are alone or one in the crowd

Haan tumhare liye hi, gaoonga main woh gaana
Kyunki tumko hai ab mujhko apne paas laana
Kabhi na kabhi to tum paas aaogi hi jaana
Tab mil beth kar khaayenge apni pasand ka khaana

Oh, please don't misunderstand my intentions
Do trust my decency from all dimensions
Without you, my heart will be cut in a million sections
Leaving me poisoned or hanging on rope suspensions

Tumhare bina hoon main, chaand ka woh tukda
Jiska andhere main, chupa hua hai mukhda
Ab to aake khila do tum meri zindagi main ujala
Taaki khushiyon se bhar jaaye mere dil ka sukhaa pyaala

Fresher's Day Party

Must've been some fun times when I wrote this


Everybody, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon!
Fresher's Day Party, let's bring it on!
Time's passing on, we're waiting for a song
The fun part's on, with nothing wrong

After passing a screening test,
The party brings out, the very best
So admirations come, from the rest
While everyone enjoys the fest!

These terrific dances, these silky voices
Are a few of the available variety of choices
The excellent acting during the plays
Do not require any external praise

The cool members set up the show
Amusing the audience row-by-row
They are all stunned head-to-toe
'Cause its Fresher's Day Party, so let's go-go-go...

Tera Pyar

Here's another poem I wrote years ago


Tumse hai pyar, yeh main nahi kehta
Phir bhi hoon tadapta, dard ko sehta
Badi mushkil se hoon, tere bina zinda rehta
Kya karoon - tere pyar ke nashe main hoon behta

Us pyar ke nashe main hoon main behka
Jise soch kar, mera dil hai dehka
Teri khushboo se, main hoon mehka
Jaise ki kaliyan khilne par, phool hai chehka

Kaisa yeh nasha hai, kaisa yeh khumaar hai
Aisa tera pyar hai, aayi jaise bahaar hai
Nahi inkaar hai, na ikraar hai
Ab to kuch keh de, dil yeh bekaraar hai

Tere bina ab yeh nahi jee paayega
Kyunki tera pyar, zindagi bhar satayega
Tere ishq main, yeh tadapta reh jaayega
Tere baare main hi sochta reh jaayega

Happy Teacher's Day!

I was going through some old stuff I had lying around, when I came across some poems I had written a while ago...figured I'd post them all here as well

I have no idea when/why I wrote this but apparently I did!...its a good poem I suppose...certainly reminds me of high school


Everybody, let me hear you say,
2004, Happy Teacher's Day!
Its time, we all pay,
Tribute to those who show us the ray
To success in their own way

They help us decide our fate,
Understanding what we like and hate
Their presence of mind helps us understand our state,
And so, I can happily say, "You all are majestically great!"

Be it sports or be it studies,
Working alone or with buddies
You have always been there with support,
Even in our problems, like an escort

Therefore, I plead to you, please remain the same,
Helping us earn, name and fame
Finally, everybody loudly say,
2004, Happy Teacher's Day!

Final Words

There's a fire rising within my heart
As my soul continues to burn
With the open wounds that you've left me
My life continues to wither away

Deep beneath the ashes lies my soul
That you cursed upon when we separated
And so now I'm all alone, wondering what's changed
As the weight of our love crushes me away

The distances that arose between ourselves
Continue to haunt me even today
As I stand here looking at the past
I realize what a fool I've been

There's no denying that I really miss you
From the moment you said that we are through
But I cannot change what's already gone
So I leave you with these final words...

Destiny

I was just wondering the other day,
Why our lives are so dull
Struggling to make ends meet
Why can't we just walk on the road to freedom

Trying to reach those goals,
Ones that we didn't even accept
We give up what we truly want
And end up having nothing at all

I'd love to go on long road trips
Seeing new places along the way
Meeting new people, making new friends
But alas life isn't as easy as it may appear

So I'm sitting here thinking what I can do
Yet nothing at all seems to solve my problems
And so I continue to think about where I could've been
Had such a life not been my destiny

Dream

Days come and pass by yet you remain in my heart
Even as my life rots away I'm still waiting for a new start
Upon your answer, my life still hangs in waiting
But it seems like I'm a castaway - for whom no one cares

Its funny how my mind is always clouded with your thoughts
Yet you are busy within your own life, nowhere to be seen
I pass by your neighborhood everyday just to see you smile,
Yet you discard my living as if I'm not even there

Here I'm dying just to get another view of you
While, for you, its all over and we are already through
I can't give up now though, because I've come too far
Now my life hangs in balance and I can't afford to lose

I still can't believe how ugly things have turned
You have gone miles away and my life has fallen apart
Yet I'm still waiting even if its as foolish as it seems
Because its my only hope and you are my only dream

Daraar

Humein ruksat kiya apni sar zameen se
Chhod chale majdhar mein is zindagi ko
Ittefaq hi hoga jo aaj bhi intezaar hai
Ki waqt woh lautega aur phir se aayegi bahaar

Ussi ke khwaabon main yeh mann kyun bhatakta hai
Dekhne ko use ek pal, yeh dil kyun tadapta hai
Jab zindagi se meri tum ja hi chuke ho
To yaadon mein teri yeh dard kyun rehta hai

Kehne ko to yun, akele hum jee bhi lenge
Judaai ke aansoon, hum pee bhi lenge
Tumse aitbaar na kiya, lekin yeh gham satayega
Issi kashish main, sarhadein hum see bhi lenge

Dard hai kuch dil mein jo tumhein bhoolane na dega
Jo beetaye the saath pal woh hamesha yaad aayenge
Phir chahe yeh dooriyan kabhi na khatam ho
Jo dil mein hai tumse daraar, yeh kabhi na mitegi

When I'm With You

If I only lived another moment, I'd spend it with you
If I died this very moment, I'd wanna be with you
You may never realize how much I truly love you
But my existence is only complete when I'm with you

People have a lot of ambitions in life
But my only wish is to have you in my arms
For that I'd happily die several times everyday
For happiness with you around surpasses eternity

People search for divinity all their lives
But I found purity, the day I met you
The essence of my life shines through your soul
And so now my mere living is to see you smile

If I had the strength, I'd learn everything about you
If I had the heart, I'd take your problems from you
You may never realize but I can't live without you
'Coz my life reaches salvation when I'm with you

Rooh-E-Ishq

Saanson main meri hai teri sargam
Yaadon mein meri bas tu hai hardam
Jitna hai pyar sab tujhko de doon
Jab ho jaaye phir se apna sangam

Tune kya jaadoo kiya, bhula na paoon tujhe
Adaayein yeh teri, deewana banaye mujhe
Phir aise mein kyun tanha mujhe chhod gayi
Kabhi laut aana aur bata dena wajah mujhe

Is zindagi ko jeene ki wajah ho tum
Ho mera jahan, yeh aasmaan ho tum
Dekhta hoon roz tumhein, par chuu na poon
Ki kya khafa maine, jo yeh saza ho tum

Ek ghar ho jismein hum tum rahein
Saath saath chale, dard sab sahein
Kyunki tum bin zindagi adhoori si lage
Kashish hai meri, kaise yeh tumse kahein

Meri chahat ka manzar ho tum
Mohabbat ka aftab ho tum
Sar zameen par chaaye ho meri
Rooh-e-ishq ka noor ho tum

Until I Met You...

I always thought life was meant to be lived alone
I always thought my pains were only my own
And so I lived with these feelings within my heart
Until I met you and I had a whole new start

Life to me was all about loneliness and pain
It had no happiness and there was nothing to gain
But then I met you and you took away my despair
Giving me your faith and showing how life can be fair

Lost in my own world, my thoughts were clouded
Left all alone, my feelings were shrouded
But then I met you and I could no longer conceal
Because you see right through me, you know how I feel

Anguish and fear were like my soul mates
Depression and sorrow were my only mind states
Agony and suffering were part of my fate
I had lost all hope while being consumed by hate...

Until I met you...

Your Smile

Part of me still wishes to meet you
Even though I know that we are through
Maybe its destiny that I'm lost in your soul
Disembarking my life, stuck in this muddy hole

Searching for happiness within this dark place
Battling against time, trying to win this race
I have to get to you, before its too late
Before my life gets consumed and is filled with hate

You are the only one who can free me from this pain
Withdrawing this anguish, letting go of this strain
Embracing your heart is the only melody that I seek
It will hold me together, not making me feel weak

Within the memories of us together, I remain confined
While strings that hold my life, continue to unbind
Flowers that blossom, shape up our profile
As I see sadness, hidden beneath your smile

Survive

Wishing upon a falling star
Always wondering where you are
Feeling that you miss me too
My life has turned all subdue

My soul is lacking your passion
Sensing a growing obsession
Your thoughts make me feel timid
I can still see your face vivid

Speculations arose that you are around
Within my heart, your voices resound
But my wishes continue to turn into ashes
My words reprise and haunt me as lashes

As days pass, I continue to wither
Remembering the days when I would dither
Seeing you soon is the wish upon which I thrive
And that is my life, upon which I survive

Memories

Memories infused with the smell of roses
Instigate your thoughts within my mind
Enclosed within my own little shell
I see them devour all that's left of me

It reminds me of a lot of things
Things that i try moving ahead of...
But they keep catching up to me
Bringing me back where it all began

The warmth of your love soothes my soul
The depth of my heart enveloped by your affection
Caressing me ever so softly and gently
Your tender care relieves me of this pain

Like the unwinding circle of mother nature
I'm haunted by what's already long gone
Despite the distances that exist between us
I continue living upon that tiny shred of hope

Reminiscence

Shadows beneath the clouds, tears within the rain
Memories of us together that have left me with a stain.
Ashes falling with wind, fear within this pain
Losing my conscience daily, even my death does refrain.

Stress within this darkness, anger within this flame
Despite my constant struggle, my feelings remain the same.
Fazing of the mist, irreverence of the sun
This world has left me, isolated and shun.

Insolence of the sky has slowed down my pace
Obscurity has me shut, within a tight space.
Earth seems to confine me daily as per its grace
Annihilating my senses, making me give up this race.

Heaven disproves my existence, hell divides my insistence
Conquering my motivation, plaguing my persistence.
When nature and its forces are close to my destruction
Reminiscence of those days is my only obstruction.