Forever

Walking down the memory lane, your thoughts came flashing back at me
Of how I craved for your happiness, it was all I ever wanted to see
But I never realized that you wanted to go away, you wanted to be free
And now sadness is all around me for it has now become my destiny

Even if you left me for a moment, I used to go into a state of depression
Now that you have left me forever, my feelings don't even have an expression
Yet miracles do occur and its the sole reason why I am still alive
To depict to this world, how for you, I am willing to strive

Wherever I see, I always look into your face
Of how you left me alone, even without a trace
Yet even when miles apart, you will be within my soul
For being with you, has become my life's ultimate goal

With your smile, comes the beautiful sunrise
Yet without you in my life, comes my demise...
But I will continue to abide by your demeanor
Until the day I die, or till I live forever...

Fariyaad

Jiske liye jeete hain, ussi ke haathon mar jaayenge
Khushiyan nahi to kya, ghamon ke dabaav se hi bhar jaayenge
Jis ehsaas par nyochavar hua hai yeh dil maula
Aaj unhi ki khatir, hum apna khoon bhi baha jaayenge

Jeete ji to nahi, maut se shayad apna milan ho
Roshni main nahi, shayad andhere main hi woh kiran ho
Jiski aas lagaaye betha hoon main zindagi bhar
Shayad us khuda ke paas hi meri kashmakash ka hal ho

Raeth ke mehelon jaisi hain meri sab khushiyan
Saagar ki lehron se inmein aa jati hain khamoshiyan
Jab se tum khafa ho kar gaye ho is zindagi se
Inmein basi hain sirf tumhari yaadein aur tanhaiyaan

Ab to jab talak rota hoon, bas mujhe tumhari yaad sataati hai
Bas yehi sochta rehta hoon, kab tak zindagi mera saath nibhaati hai
Jahaan dekhta hoon, bas tumhara chehra dikhayee padta hai
Kabhi to miloge tum, issi fariyaad par zindagi kat si jaati hai

Fighter

When we were together, you taught me joy and laughter
Now that you are gone, my life itself has become a laughter
Without you, desperation, frustration has taken over my existence
And now looking for you is my only aim, this is the only ordinance

Memories affluent of our old days, flow within my heart
Oh how i wish to god...if only we had a whole new start
But I know that lost time shall never come back
And so now, bitter realities I'm trying to hack

But alas, without you, my life is turning bleak
Lost in these memories, I'm growing weak
However, I won't give up till I find you again
Because the only hope of seeing you is keeping me sane

Now I see our memories spread like pebbles on the river floor
Drowning with the pressure, trying to get to the shore
But as these memories drown, it makes me feel lighter
And so I will reach the shore and will come out as a fighter...

Dard Bhare Nagme

Tujh bin in tanhaiyon ke bhanwar main phasa hoon
Tere pyar main unche sapno ko bhi liye kasa hoon
Vishwaas hai mujhe, tere jigar mein main hi basa hoon
Intezar par tera kehta hai mujhse, main hi teri saza hoon

Hui thi humse galtiyan...yeh mujhe kabool hai
Jee sakta hoon tum bin, yeh mera maqbool nahi
Ab mujhe andhero ke us par, roshni ki talaash hai
Is pyar main zindagi kya, maut ka bhi ehsaas nahi

Apne milan ko rokne ki chahe kitni bhi karle duniya saazish
Nahi rok paayegi, kyunki tum ban gaye ho meri zindagi ki aatish
Tum se hai meri zindagi, tumhi se hai meri roshni
Tum se hai meri bekhudi, tumhi se hai meri har khushi

Chahe apne beech ho saagar ki lehron ka faasla
Tumhein paane ki kashish mein main khounga nahi main honsla
Chahe hum na ho ab saath, par yeh yaadein ab bhi zinda hain
Dard bhare nagme hi sahi, par basa in mein bhi mera khuda hai...

Testify

Mystifying thoughts sustaining within my mind
Extravagant memories of yours, I continue to bind
Wondering what my life was, before you came to me
And now how everything has changed...you are my destiny

Aspirations of mine now cease to appear
Since that very day, when you had to disappear
Without you in my life, even death isn't a fear
And now i have to find you, taking even this world's jeer

We may be destinies apart, but our souls remain the same
And now my life without you, is like a photo without its frame
Like a human without his name, like a child without his game
Like a person without his fame, like a fire without its flame...

But don't you worry, I will survive
The reality of my life, I will defy
My search for you, I will justify
Giving this world, something to testify...

Agwah

Is jeevan ka adhaar tum hi se hai
Is zindagi main aayi bahaar tum hi se hai
Jannat ka zameen par uphaar tum hi se hai
Haan mujhe bhi sirf pyar tum hi se hai

Toofano ki in lehron main, tum meri kashti ho
Khwabon mein, in aankhon main, sirf tum hi basti ho
Chahaton ke is aalam main, tum mera sab kuch ho
Ab jo nahi ho zindagi main, sochta hoon na ab kuch ho.

Par dil main ab bhi umeed hai ki aaogi tum ek din
Magar darr is baat ka hai ki kaise rahoon tab tak tum bin
Ab to bas yaad karta hoon jo humne saath beetaye the pal
Woh hansi khushi ke din, jab tum hui karti thi badi chanchal

Par hai yeh kaisi kashmakash, kahaan gaye woh nagme?
Ab to jab sochta hoon, bas yaad aate hai woh sadme
Jinse ho gayi hai meri yeh zindagi tabah
Aur jinne kar liya hai, meri khushiyon ko agwah

Tumse Hai Chahat

Saanson main tum kuch is kadar sama gaye ho
Ki tumse doori ki soch se bhi yeh rooh kaanp jaati hai
Yaadon main aa kar is dil ko kuch aise behla jaati ho
Ki saanson mein mehak tumhari khushboo se aati hai

Tanha is safar main ab bas tumhara sahara hai
E-rab phir kyun tune cheena mujhse mera yaara hai
Mere hosho-hawaas par chaaya ab to mera dildaara hai
Woh pyar ka hai shola, suraj ki kirano se nikala ek angara hai

In andhero raaston par ab bhi kayi ujjale hai
Is dukh bhari zindagi main ab bhi kayi dilwale hai
Chahat bina chahe jeena nahi ho aasaan
Par sunle mere khuda, hum to maut ke bhi matwale hai

Aankhon se ashq motiyon jaise behte hai
Tum bin is zindagi main, hum kuch is kadar rehte hai
Ab to bas tumko itna sa kehne ki aas hai
Aaj bhi tumko chahte hai...hum bas itna kehte hai...

Humdard

Barishon ke baadal, jaise aasmaan main garajte rehte hain
Tum bin, in aankhon se aansoon bhi waise baraste rehte hain
Samundar ki lehrein, lehron par kashti, jaise chalti rehti hai
Tum bin, yeh zindagi bhi, kuch waise hi gujarti rehti hai

Viraan jungalo main hai jaise andhera basa
Teri yaadon ne hai kuch waise mujhe kasa.
Toofano ke bahaav main ho jaise koi saanp dasa
Tere zehreele pyar ka waise mujh par chaaya nasha

Lahoo behne ka kyon ho use koi gham
Jiske dil par laga hua ho koi zakhm.
Kya doge use tum koi khushi ya marham
Jiske dil ki koi chura gaya sargam.

To phir maut se woh kyun darte hain.
Jo zindagi par mar-gujarte hain
Phir zindagi main chahe sau dard hai
Magar mere e-khuda, tu to akhir humdard hai...

Set Us Free

Lost within my thoughts, tired of self-consciousness
Trying to unframe, just what is the mysteriousness
But alas, I only ended where I began
Seeing my dreams run away, that only hold you can

And so now I can see in only one direction
Where my love is only for your dedication
My life is all for your declaration
While all your miseries are, my suffocation

Now, only you can help me end this misery
By taking away this suffocation that resides within me
Helping us attain what we aspire to be
Oh and then that day, you shall set us free

Hope

I started on the notion that the world is full of pretentious people
Like a flower blossoming from the outside, but with a corrupt sepal
But even I hadn't imagined, that the journey would be full of hitches
Travelling to see the riches, but ended up in the ditches...

Not that it bothered me, oh no, not at all
For my expectations had since long, already started to fall
But even then, when the vivid reality struck me, I can't quite re-call
For those were the moments, when my life simply appeared to stall.

I know my expressions, may seem a little obscure
But, such are my findings, that I really don't see a cure
For it takes one to bring, the reality back ashore
But it takes two to cleanse it...so that its white, shiny and pure

But alas, we are all the same, looking for the easy way
The sun is shining in our face, yet we are looking for the light and ray
And so, oh dear god, today I can only wish and pray
That one day, all will realize that like water is to bay,
Our shelter is in the form of hope...if only we want it to stay...

Sifar

Aap ki umeedon par, hum khare na utre
Duniya ki is bheed main, phir se kahin hum bichre
Ab to khuda tere haathon main hai, meri zindagi ki majdhar
Roshni hai tu, aur andhere main hai yeh sansaar.

Dil main hai bas tera vishwaas, ab nahi hai mera koi mazhab
Ek pal ka milan ho usse, bas meri hai ab itni si talab
Mujhe hai e-rab tera vaasta, bejhijak mar jaaoonga us par
Maut main bhi hoga tera aashiyana, haath jo rakh de tu hum par

Zindagi yeh teri khatir kar doon main ab to qurbaan
Sooli par bhi chad jaoon khushi se, dil hua hai tujh par parwaan
Meri chahat ki diwangi, tujh par hui hai yun bekadar
Ki tujh bin yeh kuch nahi, meri zindagi main hai sifar.

Life's Jury

Another day's just passed, yet you are no where in sight
But I'm still waiting even if chances don't look bright
Just to be with you, I'll put through all my might
And then maybe you'll realize that love isn't about wrong or right

I remember you told me that our destinies aren't the same
And so I duly ask you, do you believe in fame?
Because that's what you are for me, and this isn't any game
I only live for you, and from you, comes my name...

Please never say to me, that you've had enough
Because life for me, without you, won't even be just tough
You can say that i'll live, altho it will be rough
But I hate to disagree, you will only see me going buff...

With all due honesty, I'm still unsure of my feeling
But ever since you've gone, my life's simply been reeling
Almost as if my life, from me, some1's been stealing
Yet I live on, while my feelings for u continue peeling

And so, today when I finally think I know, I ask you
Is it too late, or do we still have a chance to make it through?
Because now I know that without you, life shall only serve me fury
And so please tell me what you think, while I'm waiting on life's jury

Wafa

Ghamon main bichchi thi meri zindagi ki kahaani
Phir aaye tum, sunane isse chahat ki zubaani
Ishq hua humein...ban gayi tu diwani
Aisa vaada kiya humne, ki maut bhi saath hai nibhaani

Par jab aaknhon par se dhund ke badal chate
Kuch hi palon main meri zindagi se tum hate
Phir to rab hi jaane, kaise hain yeh din kate
Gham din main, tanhayee raat main bate

Andheron main doobi hai meri yeh duniya
Jabse tumne looti hain, meri sab khushiyan
Ab to angaaron main chal kar main yun jeeta hoon
Duniya bhar ke aansoon, ghut ghut kar peeta hoon

Kya mujhe hai pyar, abhi tak iska ehsaas nahi
Par tum bin jee na sakoonga, iska hai aabhaas sahi
Ab to kuch aise gham-e-rooh ban gaye ho tum mere
Ki dekhoon na tumhein to, din main bhi ho jaate hai andhere

Haan meri saanson main ab bhi bas tumhari mehak hai
Sunta hoon jahaan, dekhta hoon jahaan...bas tumhari chahek hai
Sabab hai tumhara, ki maut bhi mujhse hai khafa
Aur isliye maangta hoon tumse mannat, bas de do mujhe apni wafa.

Yeh Chahat

Tumhari adaoon ko kya dekha, hua yeh dil deewana hai
Tumhari nigaahon ko kya parkha, hua yeh dil afsana hai
Tumhari saanson se hi to yeh zamaana mehka hai
Tumhare khwaabon se hi to tanha yeh jag ab rehta hai.

Kis kadar tumse humein hai chahat, iska humein ehsaas nahi
Kis kadar tumse milti hai raahat, kyun iska tumhein aabhaas nahi
Nazar utha kar jo tum dekh lo, khushiyan milein humein baar baar
Iska tumhein kaise karayein aetbaar, itni si humein aahat nahi.

Saanson mein tum rehte ho, rooh main ho samaaye
Zindagi main tum sama jaana, phir chahe maut bhi aa jaaye
Tanhayee ke is safar main, meri tum har tamanna ho
Is dil main kisi ki jagah nahi, jo khushiyon ko tum ho bhaaye

E khuda....kya yeh chahat tujhko maqbool hai?
Agar nahi, to kya meri maut tujhko kabool hai?
Is sansaar main uske bina main jee na sakoonga
Ghamon se kya...khushiyon se bhi main tadap uthoonga...

Dil Ki Chahat

Tanhaiyon main jeene ki aadat si ho gayi hai
Tumhare khayalon main khone si chahat si ho gayi hai
Mohabbat ka izhaar phir bhi tumse na kar sakoon
Bas ab itni si ghabrahat si ho gayi hai

Andheron main, ujalon main, bas tumhein dhoondta rehta hoon
Dil ki har dhadkan mein tumhein mehsoos karta rehta hoon
Meri zindagi ka tum ban gaye ho junoon
Par phir bhi tumhein iska izhaar kar na sakoon

Dekhta hoon jo tumhein, meri saansein ruk si jaati hain
Sun leta hoon tumhein to yeh zindagi tham si jaati hain
Sapno main bhi tumko apne paas ab mangoon main
Zindagi main zindagi, tumhare khwabon se aati hain.

In andhero main tum meri roshni ban gaye ho
Jism hai mera, rooh tum ban gaye ho
Tum bin, mere sapne bhi ab saare hai jaayenge so
Haan, is kadar tum is dil ki chahat ban gaye ho

God's Platter

It was another usual day,
When my thoughts were on our fray
When you left me forever to stay
And ever since, my life's been all dark and gray

You know very well, that I still miss you
If only I could show you what I have been through
To others, I still, may seem placid
But my eyes are stuck on that bottle of acid.

To wish you will return, would be too much to ask
Especially since, I'm still wearing the guilty mask
By keeping you away, god's giving me the lashes
Forcing me to die everyday, waiting for the ashes

I know that life's just a bullet away
While I, as always, continue to sway
But I'd rather die everyday, for the ones that matter
Than have my life served, in a god's platter...

Final Testament

Can there be joy without happiness?
Can there be sadness without sorrow?
Can there be ethics without morals?
Can I have a life without you?

To most, these questions may sound askew
But then again, I'm one of the few
Who don't consider patience as a virtue
And every moment, I live my whole life through...

And so i embarked towards my destination
Asking myself for hope without aspiration
How my life had become subjective
Even though it lacked any objective

And so, today I have finally concluded
Whatever may be our lives rudiments
And our views about life may be different
But all our lives still consist of the same elements...

Belief provides our lives a balanced agreement
And yes, this is my final testament

Secrets

Secrets are a part of life
That define our strive with our strife.
There's a rumour that's rife
That secrets are the difference between death and life.

To keep secrets is a part of humanity
The one thing that keeps us from insanity
For secrets provide pleasures that we preserve as treasures.
To earn them we take measures, breaking away all the pressures.

But alas, secrets can sometimes make one devious
Sometimes knowingly, sometimes oblivious
But nonetheless, people behold them as if they are prestigious
And so such secrets must be withheld while the time is auspicious

Secrets are shady, just thought that you should know.
At times I wonder why, so many people let them grow.
Cancerous to everyone, let's bring them all to light.
Sometime soon, the time is near, all revealed alright.

I wrote this for a friend...the last verse is his work, not mine :)

Without You

Destinies apart, now i've lost all hope
Life without you now, is simply impossible to cope
But I'm still living on that one thread of life
That one day you will come and kill me of this fear

Dismantling illusions, sporadic imaginations,
Is my life without you...a life without destinations
Distraughted minds, disoriented thoughts,
Without you, my mind is at war with my heart that is wrought.

I have always found life plain, vivid and simple
One to be of joy, with the sun shining upon your dimple.
But now seasons have changed, and have left me with a rimple
For I'm no more nimble, as life's made me impel.

But even then, a human without a purpose, has no reason to live
For there's no hope for him, and nothing for him to give
And so today, I want to make myself clear to you...
That if I can't be with you, then I don't even wanna be without you

If I Die Today

If I die today, will you still remember me?
We are meant to be together forever, aren't we?
For all that matters to me, is you and my family...
And I know that what currently matters to them is my destiny.

And so, I croon your name...please come back to me!
For all I know is that you are my destiny
My only hope, holding off insanity...
My only reason to fight this social mutiny

Without you, my efforts are futile and in vain
Because then my life would only consist of pain
I will be ambushed by fear and insecurity, i will go insane
And then I will only see calamities and blood shed like rain

Will you be with me confronting human morality?
For death can't apart two hopeful souls without anxiety
Heavens shall cry, and we shall defy hell's mortality
And so I ask you, oh if I die today, will you still love me?